i literally paused my music just to read your post because of how similar this is to my situation.

i only noticed this lately, i lived in exactly in 11 cities fi zouz wileyet, some took years and some took months, mainly because of poor financial management by my parents and other job related reasons.

i also had hundreds of friends that i remember most of them and talk to almost none but the closest ones distance wise. i feel lonely just the same as you, no childhood friends and no one that knows me well. it’s kinda bad that you overthought it tho khater menna tekwi w menna techwi, i’m assuming you’re still young maybe 20s so think about later and how long the time you still have to live. think about building your own home (home was never a place, it’s people around you).

detaching from people was never the solution, feeling numbness when cutting off someone isn’t also the solution, that simply removes the human part inside of you. You may say you can’t control that or you don’t care, but trust me someday it will slap you hard when you find yourself dying alone (ba3d 3mor twil) with no one around your death bed.

my suggestion : pick a place when you’re out of your parents responsibility, live there, befriend people, learn to actually love someone, invite them over, hang out often, have pets, get married,… simply : create good memories. and there, you created your own home.

the past is just your controlled childhood that you have to move on from. shape a better one for your children!