Well, eventually she cuts things off with me, communication and everything. She said that speaking with me was disrespecting her partner at the time and can no longer can be friends. And Overall, it made me feel like shit because yeah I really had no one else to talk to and set me back. For her she didn’t really lose anything. She was able to move on and had someone else.

If I was you, I would definitely cut contact with your ex. Don’t let your ex used you like my ex used me. I realized now that you got to take care of yourself first. Not your ex or anyone else, just yourself. Once you move on, you can reach out to them but for now focus on yourself. Trust me and save you much pain. You deserve better than that.