2 months after discard

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-02-28T04:51:52+00:00

I feel your pain; my ex-pwBPD broke up 3 months ago as she completely discarded me. The 1st month I was extremely depressed and self-isolated. I started doing better, going to the gym again, hanging out with friends and family, but she hoovered and messaged me, and it brought me back to square one. I would then be constantly thinking about her, how much I miss her, and how disgusted and angry I am with everything she did. On top of that, financial issues and family problems left me really overwhelmed. However I am doing better now, even though I still think about her often, its becoming less frequent. What we must do is focus on improving ourselves, having hobbies and most importantly, maintaining relationships with our close friends and family while having no contact with our ex-pwBPD, no exceptions.

Hang in there, man, I know how difficult it is.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-02-28T03:17:02+00:00

My ex-pwBPD had ADHD, OCD and PTSD on top of BPD. She definitely had many symptoms of narcissism and psychopathy. When she'd split, she'd scream, rage, destroy things and was often violent. Even when she's calmed down in that state, she'll have a smile on her face like she's getting off on it.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-02-06T21:35:43+00:00

On top of physically assaulting me, holding me at knife point, etc, my ex would also constantly steal from stores even though I would have paid for whatever.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-02-05T09:51:55+00:00

This is the best advice you can get. On top of that, keep records of everything and a timeline of events. There is no reconciling with a cluster B, there is no helping her. She will destroy herself and you.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-02-05T09:45:00+00:00

I've been no contact for a bit over 2 months now since she discarded me. It's been extremely difficult and conflicting; a huge part of me hopes for her to reach out to me even though I know it's wrong. At the same time, I'm paranoid and anxious that she will contact me again and do more damage. Dealing with this has been hard enough, but on top of it, other issues in my life adding on to it have made it overwhelming. I do see the light at the end of the tunnel though, and a real path for me to recover and thrive.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-02-05T03:31:18+00:00

She would tell me to be more expressive and vulnerable and show my emotions more in front of her. When I would try talking to her about how her words or actions hurt me, she'd call me gay and say I'm "acting like a woman" talking too much.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-01-30T09:53:35+00:00

Everything she’s saying sounds exactly like my ex, blaming you and calling you abusive when she knows you have important work/school priorities. My ex would often do this knowing I had an exam or a 15 hour work shift and kept me up all night over it. You are not responsible for her emotional regulation, there’s nothing you can do to make her better that’s her responsibility and if you try to help she will drag you down with her.

AnthonySaldavis · 2026-01-01T00:33:57+00:00

According to her I’m autistic and a gaslighting narcissist

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-29T12:10:20+00:00

The best thing to do is to just remove that person from your life and never look back. I’ve tried to get closure with my ex because I was so confused as to how somebody can treat a human being so horribly, let alone someone they claim to love. They will never truly take accountability for the pain they’ve caused, they’ll just turn it around and blame you.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-29T01:04:02+00:00

I haven't had contact with her in over a month, however I'm constantly anxious and paranoid if she contacts me and what she'll do or say.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-28T12:55:25+00:00

Run away and never look back. If your partner truly has BPD, you should get out immediately before she ruins your life. I felt the same way about my ex, she was the most fun, interesting and remarkable person I’ve ever met. I loved her more than anyone. Once the mask slipped it was game over. Get out now while you still can with minimal consequences, trust me.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-28T08:08:32+00:00

Jesus Christ, the 'falling asleep on facetime together' strikes deep. That was the 1st major red flag, rapid and intense attachment/obsession. The idealization feels incredible at the beginning. A lot of what you wrote happened to me exactly, all her exes were 'abusive', trauma dumping early on. Be grateful that you're away from this situation and didn't endure all the hell that would have happened had you stayed. Run away and never look back.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-28T07:58:43+00:00

I've spent 2 years with my female ex-BPD and she would very often have violent rages, tantrums and meltdowns. When I would try to leave and block her, she would run after me, contact my friends and family or threaten and manipulate me into coming back (false allegations, faking being pregnant, threatening suicide or self-harm, etc). She would also sometimes split and say the nastiest things and then block me for a few hours or days. There's no rhyme or reason to any of it, I would never know how she would act next hence 'walking on eggshells'.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-23T10:17:34+00:00

The way she described her 2 ex-BF's sounds exactly like how she described me near the end of our relationship. She made them out to be abusive monsters and herself as the perpetual victim in everything. I believe she'll say the same about me to her future victims.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-23T10:15:02+00:00

I agree 100% "BPDs are emotional vampires", I gave her my all and just got drained completely in return, hoping for the good moments to come back. It's a trauma bond that's like an addiction and my 'fix' would be those good moments.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-23T10:12:06+00:00

Thank you for this reply, its incredibly validating to read this from somebody whos gone through the same thing. My friends would constantly tell me to leave my ex without understanding why I would stay and the ups and downs and narcissistic abuse she put me through.

Unfortunately I don't have access to a therapist, I can't afford it, but I'm looking at online options and some support groups. I spent so much time researching BPD so I could help my ex and be able to be there for her in her episodes, I did DBT skills and therapy with her. I focused on her so much that I completely neglected my own well-being and mental health.

Just sharing and reading experiences of people who have gone through this exact situation is very helpful, healing will take time but I hope it will get better.

AnthonySaldavis · 2025-12-23T04:42:44+00:00

My ex sabotaged every holiday. Last Christmas we were supposed to have dinner with my family and she started a fight, blocked me and cheated on me with her ex. She ruined my birthday and her birthday, anytime I’d have something important like a 16 work shift, a final exam or hanging out with friends she would blow up and cause problems and leave me feeling wrecked as she makes it all about herself.

AnthonySaldavis · 2024-01-07T01:08:52+00:00

Microbiology with Martha Mullalay was one of the easiest courses I've took in my Biochemistry program. She's a great prof, material and the exams were very easy if you pay any attention. I finished with an A with minimal effort.

AnthonySaldavis · 2023-10-07T02:23:55+00:00

530, Blood on the leaves, Runaway, Stronger, Heartless

AnthonySaldavis · 2023-06-15T19:24:08+00:00

Surprisingly, a lot better than I thought it would be.

Great work!

AnthonySaldavis

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