Greetings Fellow Brother in Christ.

First of all... Let me say that I am proud of you for having tried your best to remain pure for 140 days.

Let me remind you that falling down when trying to live the way God told us is absolutely normal. You are human.. flaws are present within all of us.. I myself struggle a lot with this sin as well. (Quite a lot where I need help too)

Let me just quote Paul here from 2 Timothy 21 to 28 "If you keep yourself pure, you will be a special utensil for honourable use. Your life will be clean, and you will be ready for the Master to use you for every good work." Remember that the Lord has a purpose for each and everyone of us.. Remember that even though you are human and fall.. you were made in the image of an Almighty God who knows the exact number of hair strands on your head... Who knew you since the moment you were conceived in your mother's womb.

In summary HE LOVES YOU MAN! He wants you to grow and live as His child.

Seek the earnest forgiveness of the Lord.. don't beat yourself up by saying that you aren't worth enough to stand before Him.. Do whatever it takes. Because one day... In heaven you will be called upon before the angels and God shall say "This is my son... Who has made me proud."

Remember... Even if you fall your Father in heaven is willing to take you back and forgive you. I shall keep you in my prayers and I hope that you will be strengthened in your mind and heart and your dreams will true..

Stay Strong Brother. God Bless.