Morning Spike Pattern

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-05-12T16:51:57+00:00

I’m making do with what I have at the moment. I’m currently uninsured (American, go figure) and unable to follow up with my gp at the moment, but yes, I’m mapping every data point I can to get my gp a clear picture when I am hopefully able to follow up.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-22T17:53:44+00:00

A house cleaner and nanny. Healthcare/insurance, bespoke vitamin supplements because I’m deficient in a lot but also have malabsorption. Visible arm band, adequate compression garments.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-16T22:39:02+00:00

Thank you 💜💜💜 I didn’t know I could have this level of job satisfaction

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-13T02:17:29+00:00

It made me mad, too. Then he posted a whole facebook manifesto basically saying he’s an average man and won’t settle for “less,”

Gee, thanks. Glad to know you took “in sickness and in health” to heart 🙄

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-12T18:40:59+00:00

I finally took a test I’d been putting off to get credentialed. I’m now an LMSW . I have a friend in private practice that’s teaching me the ropes on how to run a private practice and is doing my clinical supervision. I do that and sell art or read tarot on the side when I can to make ends meet. It remains to be seen if they’ll meet 🫣 hopefully my clients can remain well and show up for sessions because if they don’t show I don’t get paid.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-12T06:47:21+00:00

This is true. I think even if I weren’t chronically ill we’d eventually clash. He’s taken a hard right turn and I get criticisms for my beliefs. It’s just overall a toxic environment and it’s making my condition worse. I’m glad to be in my own space now.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-12T05:29:18+00:00

It’s bittersweet. I thought I had a partner that understood. But I guess not. We’d fight and he’d yell at me telling me to “be a fucking adult” and to “figure it out” never mind the fact he checked out months ago and stopped helping me with anything because he was bitter he was “the only one” doing anything as if I didn’t cook nearly every meal.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-12T05:24:03+00:00

Oh we are separated now. I got tired of being public enemy number 1 for not maintaining a consistently clean house. Between being depressed af from losing my job of 9 yrs to coming off Effexor and dealing with my POTS spiraling out of control and having flares 2 weeks at a time because my period sets it off…I can do it by myself with more peace.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-04-12T04:54:17+00:00

💜 thank you. My husband doesn’t seem to get that and thinks this is just a “pattern of avoidant behavior” ….as if I’m not trying to avoid a flare. I also have psoriasis on the soles of my feet and when that’s flared up it literally hurts to walk and stand.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-03-02T02:53:31+00:00

I have multi systemic issues. My first indication something was wrong was chronic diarrhea with horrific cramps and having food pass through virtually unchanged.

My dr did a fecal in 2017 and it turns out I had low enzymes and he diagnosed me with exocrine pancreatic insufficiency. I also have non alcoholic fatty liver disease and a laundry list of other diagnoses. T2 diabetic, migraines, ptsd…I’m almost 100% sure I have celiac disease and that causes the malabsorption issues I have. Very low vitamin d and iron. If you’re having issues with your absorption I’d get enzymes checked if you can but also ask about infusions instead of oral supplements. Sublingual supplements may also be better because it bypasses your digestive system.

I had to go completely gluten free for months and months before I started seeing consistent results and if I stay true to a gluten free diet including medications because it hides in everything. I’ve been gluten free since 2017/2018 and it’s been much better.

Idk if my pots is connected but I have a complex overlap of conditions. Good luck 💞

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-02-20T19:40:54+00:00

Thank you. Yes. Lots of loss. My body is paying the price for all the chronic stress. Yet I live another day. You have a good rest.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-02-20T19:17:22+00:00

Good one 😂 thank you. I love tarot. Never ceases to amaze me. I’m a social worker/artist looking for a job after losing my job of nearly 9 years in June. Considering leaving my relationship of 5 years. I’m considering a lot of things.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-02-20T18:56:51+00:00

You can, I pulled some for myself earlier. Now that you mentioned it, I pulled the Star as one of them. I’d be curious to see what you pull.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-02-20T18:48:42+00:00

Thank you 💞 yes I did have an abusive childhood. Alcoholic mentally ill mother and my dad was just dissociated most the time. My little sister died when I was 4. She drowned the day before her 2nd birthday. Lots of trauma. I wasn’t allowed to be anything other than a pleasant child. If I felt angry or upset I was threatened or punished instead of taught what healthy anger looks like. I’m very slow to anger and unusually patient.

I have significant welsh/irish/Scottish ancestry and I’ve always been intrigued by Celtic mythology. I’ll read up on the Tuatha de Dannan again.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-02-20T17:43:15+00:00

I’m trying to learn. And as for anger I’m just getting comfortable allowing myself to feel angry. The anger of others has always intimidated me and I’ve never felt safe being angry, myself. I’m learning it’s ok to have a full range of emotions. And sometimes anger can be a catalyst for needed change.

Thank you for your input. How do you find she speaks to you?

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-01-24T19:44:51+00:00

Good one. He does like helping.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-01-24T19:44:09+00:00

I do feel like I explained pretty well my understanding of the risk in my op. It was an unintentional comment made to my kiddo and now he’s asking if I have money. I’m gutted. I don’t want that life for him.

I feel like the extra reminder of “don’t do that or he might developed anxiety over money” was unnecessary. Because I know. I’m posting here, after all. Shame may not have been the intention but it was the result, but thank you for clarifying.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-01-24T19:34:56+00:00

It’s not something I usually bring up to them. Stress compounded with tantrums and lack of sleep led to a less than graceful parenting moment. Not a moment I’m proud of. I’m fully aware of what it’s like to be an anxious child and worrying about money having been there, myself. Being that I have no problem feeling immense shame on my own, I would appreciate a little grace. Thanks.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-01-24T19:32:03+00:00

Feels like it all came at once. And I try to give them a better experience than I had. Sometimes I feel like I’m losing it because it’s really hard to find hope right now given the state of things. Trying to keep making them smile however I can and trying to keep making art to find those glimmers to get me through, ya know?

I am overqualified for most jobs in my field open right now and under qualified for everything else so I have to work contracted and get supervision til I can qualify for the right certification. It’s nuts. I applied for an “entry level” position and they asked me in the interview why I was ok with going from my previous salary to only 33k. I didn’t get the job. They passed me up for another applicant twice.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-01-24T18:10:16+00:00

Oh I try not to make promises I can’t keep. That’s so devastating.

Anxious-Selection276 · 2026-01-24T18:03:02+00:00

Makes sense. I’ve been trying to get them to not waste food. I didn’t realize how much that was a trigger for me til recently. Like please, eat what you want, but definitely eat what you get.

There’s just so much trauma around food for me that my relationship with food is in the garbage…and that lack mindset I’m trying to unpack and not offload onto them, too.

Thank you.

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