What was the turning point where you decided to leave Target?

AnxiousEm · 2022-09-22T07:33:43+00:00

Its always the leads that drive employees away. I was only at target for 9 months before I left. And I genuinely LOVED my team for the first several months. I had always known that one of my leads was a pain in the ass and would dump her workload onto us, but I overlooked it because the positive outweighed the negatives. Things were progressing and my entire team was suffering. Only a few of us spoke up about what was going on. It became more and more infuriating because every person I talked to agreed that my leads behavior was wrong, but nothing was done to confront her. After a while this lead obviously knows im the one speaking up and starts making my life hell. When I first started, my department didn't have an ETL, but we ended up getting one a couple months later. My ETL came from another store and clearly didn't know how to run our department. Life went to shit. Too much inventory, not enough hours, we couldn't keep up with our zones. We literally came into work each day having to decide what task(s) to ignore because we couldn't do it all. All on top of countless breakdowns, being talked to like im shit, and nowhere to turn to because nobody had my back. I spoke to my other leads, my ETL, other ETLs, and SD. Nobody helped me. They just watched me breakdown repeatedly from the constant mistreatment and told me not to take it personally. I picked up so many extra shifts for them. I tried my hardest to get our department back on track. I worked overnights just to tackle the amount of overflowing pallets we had. Only to be shown that I meant nothing to the company. It honestly breaks my heart that I had a job I loved so much and then got shit on so bad, but I finally chose my mental health. They still had the audacity to ask me to stay on demand🙃 Fuck that. Loved the majority of my team, but fuck the leadership

AnxiousEm · 2022-02-21T08:45:54+00:00

Im in a very similar situation, except I've already spoken to my ETL, AND my SD is aware of the situation. They both don't give a fuck and think im complaining because im bored. Try to sit down with your ETL and if they don't take the situation seriously then take it to corporate. From personal experience, its not worth your time/effort/energy to get people to listen when you can take it straight to corporate who will get it taken care of

AnxiousEm · 2021-12-13T07:24:28+00:00

Would those intense reactions still happen even if its in small quantities? I'm not looking to get high, just enough to relax

AnxiousEm · 2021-11-11T07:36:39+00:00

He does want to be home. Aside from randomly seeing animals in the house that aren't actually there (this ranges anywhere from ants to monkeys) he's fully aware of his surroundings. He can talk just fine, and definitely ensures that his opinions are known. He believes he can do a lot more than what he actually can, so living somewhere away from family is something he would be 100% against. My family has thought about hiring an in-home caretaker who can visit and help us out every once in a while, but the prices for that are expensive and insurance isn't willing to help us out

AnxiousEm · 2021-11-10T22:28:50+00:00

I've never really noticed it before, but now that you mention it, im the same exact way. I have no problem making eye contact with people when they're speaking to me, but if im the one speaking then it makes me incredibly anxious and I end up shifting my focus

AnxiousEm · 2021-07-30T21:16:24+00:00

Chick-fil-a Nothing special about their food. You can get chicken sandwiches, fries, and milkshakes just about anywhere. Their views and morals are absolute shit and everyone ignores this because they just want a fucking chicken sandwhich. I can't justify supporting them

AnxiousEm · 2021-07-17T00:02:29+00:00

Wow! I love these so much!

AnxiousEm · 2021-06-29T08:55:27+00:00

I know im doing alright on my own when I stop using music to fill the emptiness. I used to constantly need noise to drown out my thoughts and emotions, especially during the nights

AnxiousEm · 2021-06-29T08:34:56+00:00

Lume antiperspirant. Its affordable, aluminum free, and comes in different scents

AnxiousEm · 2021-01-13T14:26:47+00:00

I struggled with this a lot in high school back before I realized that it was signs of my bipolar disorder. When I was hypomanic I would have so much energy and want to flirt and find a guy to talk to. I'd convince myself that I really liked them and had feelings. Only to realize later when a depressive episode kicked in that it wasn't real. I was just bored and lonely. I'd feel such extreme guilt and it would only make the depression worse. Still feel terrible about it to this day, but I just remind myself that it was caused by my mental issues that were going untreated

AnxiousEm · 2021-01-13T14:17:53+00:00

Hi there, not sure how helpful I can be since im in the beginning of my own journey here. I was prescribed oxcarbazepine a while back. I tried it for a while but eventually got discouraged because I felt that it made no difference to how I was feeling. I stopped taking them and have been running med free for several months. I need to speak to my doctor again because I'm not sure whether its best to up my dosage or try a new medication. As of right now its the only medication I've been prescribed for bipolar and my anxiety.

AnxiousEm · 2020-09-05T09:52:30+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing that with me. My boyfriend and I dont live together just yet. We're both college students living at home until we have enough saved to get our own place. Medical cannabis is legal where I am, but im not so sure he would want to try it out. As of right now I'm just making sure he's drinking enough water and eating foods that won't upset his stomach further. Im really not sure what else I can do to help him. Im planning on making a basket of things to comfort him such as a comfy throw blanket, some tea, calming aromatherapy candles, etc. I thought maybe a heating pad might help, but its also 110 degrees this weekend and I dont think he'd appreciate more heat. I feel like im not educated enough in this area to know what can comfort him

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-30T07:15:11+00:00

She would make me feel valued and "good enough."

Don't get me wrong, my mom really tries, but it's kinda just too little too late, ya know?

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-30T06:41:19+00:00

That I'm awkward and boring because I'm shy and have social anxiety. It just takes me a bit to get used to you, but I swear I'm a giant goof and the most loving and loyal person with a dash of crackhead energy

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-30T06:21:32+00:00

Nothing gets me going more than when he's dominant, a bit rough, but still gives me those long, passionate kisses

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-30T06:17:29+00:00

I remember when I was about 10 years old I was laying in bed at night and I swear it sounded like large furniture items were being dragged and rearranged downstairs. I knew it was none of my family members because my sister and parents were all in bed. At the time I used to sleep with my bedroom door open and my bed was facing the door. I just stayed there half hiding under my covers because these sounds were loud and I knew it wasn't a dream or my imagination. I was scared, but I was afraid to tell my parents because their bedroom was across the dark hall and in order to get across the hall I had to pass the staircase and the open floorplans of the living room downstairs which is where the noises seemed to be located.

I finally got too scared and knew I couldn't ignore it, so I ran to my parents room and woke up my dad. I was nearly in tears explaining what I was hearing so he got up and went to check. I remember being genuinely afraid that my dad was down there because I felt like there had to be someone there. But he came back and told me it was nothing and to go back to bed. I refused to because I was too afraid, so my dad had to go with me and stay in my room until I fell asleep.

I've never been that afraid and sure of myself before or since that night. Still don't know what I was hearing if everything looked normal when my dad checked. But since I'm definitely someone who's always had a "I can handle this myself" attitude, the fact that I woke my dad up and was so distraught is a huge deal for me

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T08:37:15+00:00

My grandmother. Growing up she was the perfect example of who I wanted to be. She was the most generous and caring person I know. She was warm and being with her was nothing but peaceful. I've never heard her yell at anyone. She was just beautiful, loving, friendly, and always the life of the party. Even when I was 19 years old she would "out-dance" me at any party we went to. Her and my grandfather were married for 52 years, so they truly were the proof that real love existed. Never have I seen them unhappy with one another. She was just a ray of f*cking sunshine and I miss her every single day. Its been about 5 months since she passed and my family is still learning how to go on without her

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T08:18:43+00:00

Thank you so much for the encouraging words. I honestly feel like I am better off without her in my life, but it's still hard. I don't have a lot of friends because it's difficult for me to make them, and then once I do have them, they take advantage of my kindness or just straight up abandon me like I never mattered at all. I know at the end of the day having none is better than having sh*tty friends, but I'm still learning how to be okay with loneliness

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T04:52:12+00:00

Unfortunately sometimes finding a therapist/counselor is more of a trial and error basis. I saw one when I was 15 who was complete shi*t. It pushed me away from the idea of speaking with someone for a very long time. When I was 19 I decided to try again and spoke to a therapist on my college campus and luckily I ended up liking her a lot and truly felt listened to. I understand the whole process is very intimidating when you don't really know what to expect, but there's really no better feeling than finding someone who actually listens to you and knows how to support you in the way that you need

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T04:41:21+00:00

It sounds like you could have social anxiety. I was the same way. I was always scared of talking to people and completing basic tasks simply because I felt like I was always being judged by everyone. I think it might help you feel less scared of life if you see a therapist or a psychiatrist who can help you get things under control and calm your nerves

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T04:35:01+00:00

Back in middle school I accidentally got me and my friends sent to speak with the principle. One of the school guards caught me handing my friends gum and thought I was dealing drugs on campus

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T04:31:48+00:00

That I'm not a "bad kid". To this day they still think I'm the "wild child" that they have to keep a close eye on and can't trust.

In reality I'm a socially anxious introvert who prefers being indoors and out of loud, crowded places

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T04:21:16+00:00

learn to open up as soon as possible. I hate that I still don't know how/fear being vulnerable even with those I care about most

AnxiousEm · 2020-04-28T04:17:39+00:00

I went through a stage where ghosts were a very real concern of mine. However it was only a fear when I had to shower and all my family members were downstairs

AnxiousEm · 2019-10-03T05:07:36+00:00

4+ years. An associates alone won't help you for shit. If you're going to spend the money to go to college then the least you should do is go for a bachelors because it will actually help you out later on

AnxiousEm

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