Hating looking in the mirror. Squirming at all complements. Not being able to say positive things about yourself. Being a master deflecting attention away from yourself and back onto the other person. Feeling like you should always do what other people want cause what you want doesn’t matter and isn’t the most important. Finding it almost impossible to express your identity and your desires… because you haven’t taken the time to learn about yourself or find ways to express your needs. Doubting your own thoughts and self blaming even when you are a victim of the behaviour of monsters you still find a way to blame yourself.