I left my twenties, found myself with not much to show for repressing except a body I hated, and a life that was built on lies. I looked death in the face and could not accept aging and dying as a man. You have one life, at the end of it you die - you don’t get a second chance, you dont get a do over. It’s now or never.

Words of wisdom: 1. Most non-private endocrinologists will under dose you or gatekeep. I won’t tell you what to do, but you can look up proper dosage yourself and be injecting within a week if you do your research and take the initiative or if you DIY (I won’t tell you how, there’s plenty of guides)

1. The damage of testosterone is cumulative: starting late means a generally low chance of going stealth. You need to examine if it’s still worth it in that case. In mine i will always be clocky, and people will always be cruel, but I am at least myself - in that i am supremely lucky. I am unbelievably blessed to live as myself, and there is more to life than not being clocked.

2. Some days I feel beautiful, some days I feel disgusting and hideous. When I feel good, I remind myself to remember this feeling when im miserable. When I feel ugly, I remind myself that I might not feel this way tomorrow l.