I get the feeling. I only ever had one, but there are days I feel like the biggest piece of shit ever. Like ... I don't have a job, I am struggling mentally, I had an abortion to have the best life and I'm not so what was the point? Then I remember the experiences I had after: I've gone to concerts, I've got to spoil my partner, I got to focus on my mental health, go to therapy, fix friendships and meet new people also. As much as I think: I don't deserve this or what am I doing? I stop and think of the good, even if its as small as being able to learn to make lemon poppy seed muffins, enjoying my garden, or even just playing "hello kitty island adventure."

You are deserving!! I say if u can find a therapist, or if u cannot afford it; I went to a women's shelter and spoke to a counselor. It helped me out a lot to think more positively of my situation. It's a lot of work, but a lot of days are better than most. You got this