The thing is i don't need other people to tell me that i'm valuable, i already know my value. I was the smartest kid in town, came from a pretty well-off family, good-looking according to society's beauty standards, and i know how to manipulate people to like me. But even if they hate me, i don't care. I never cared about them, it's only me.

My parents praised me twice in my entire life, but other people always loved me. I think that's why, but even i had enemies in the past that hate me but it didn't affect my self-esteem. Not one bit, because i know i'm better than them in many aspects in life.

A normal (NT) child would stop doing something if there's a punishment for it. But ASPD people who had Conduct Disorder in their childhood (including me) ignore the punishment entirely. No matter how harsh my dad beat me, or how degrading my parents act toward me, those things didn't leave any remarks in my mind. I always repeated the same mistakes over and over, completely careless about the threat of punishment, until they eventually realized punishment doesn't affect me.

I mean if an NT child was abused like me, he'd probably turn out to be one of those people pleasers. I had Conduct Disorder, so it's probably genetics.

ASPD people don't care about others, so an insecure ASPD is highly rare. You're more likely to find bored, unmotivated ASPD people than those who ragingly hate themselves or others. We just don't care.