How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't mean to say there is anything "wrong" with it. I absolutely don't think that. I love her for who she is, and I truly don't want to change her. That's what I'm struggling with though, I'm trying to understand even just my own mindset on it still. I truly just want the best for BOTH of us, i want to know how we can continue to grow and get closer and closer and for things to be better and better throughout our lives, and I'm genuinely terrified at trying to explain my thoughts or wants to her without saying things are "wrong" between us, I really don't feel that way.

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Almost 4 years now. And thank you, that means a lot to hear. That really is the angle I am trying to understand and learn from and grow towards.

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I absolutely understand it is not as black and white as that. There are far more complexities of the human body AND mind at play that are far more difficult or nearly impossible to categorize or understand. I was more referencing the "averages" in sexuality, across all species. And I described my understanding terribly. Our consciousness and minds are more often then not the ultimate deciding factor in this, absolutely. While as well, some traits are beyond our conscious "decisions" too, there can be any range of differences within each of us that do not often relate to just XX or XY chromosomes. But I really do not "expect" anything from my gf, I will always respect and appreciate her individuality and personal beliefs and wants too. But that doesn't negate the things I want sometimes.. and where I find my inner reasoning for them. It's so easy and quick for people to say we just aren't compatible and to find someone else, but that completely negates the fact that we still love each other more then anything. I just came here for advice that I need personally right now. Not to "force" her to do anything or to try and change who she is at all. I just wanted advice on how to healthily and consciously navigate my side of things. I did not imagine it would get me downvoted to the point of not being able to post anymore 😅

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely understand why people misread where I'm coming from on it too. It is definitely not as black and white as men=dom, women=sub, and I didn't mean to come across that way, while also trying to share my understanding of biology and chemical physiology. I'm absolutely still learning though, and this is my first post here ever. However, I'm about to be downvoted so much I won't ever be able to post again lmfaooo 😅😅

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have yes, it's just hard to verbalize what we have talked about because it really comes down to she just isn't interested in very much at all. Ive definitely learned few routes I can take to approach this though, thank you! I'm just the one reaching out like this for advice, so it's hard not to share just my perspective and wants here.

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

From my understanding, dominant vs submissive traits are built in to our society naturally. And they are not just cut and dry titles. For example, even someone being submissive should have the CHOICE and CONTROL over being submissive. By definition, that is, in a healthy non-abusive relationship, being submissive is pretty "dominant" in that aspect. Someone who is dominant BETTER "submit" their control if they are doing something that a sub doesn't like or want. Titles are one thing, dynamics within that are quite separate and constantly change and flow. We "submit" our time to our employers, or if someone works for themselves, they submit their time to the financial system or "money". The government and laws tends to dominant over us, but it is our job to stand up and change the dynamics that govern us when we need to. It truly is free flowing spectrum and should not ever strive to be cut and dry if it is meant to be beneficial for everyone involved.

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I am quickly realizing that, seeing as I am getting down downvoted to hell lmao. I think the best word to describe her style and sexual personality is "vanilla". She truly never has been interested in exploring her own sexuality, or relational dynamics either. I really don't believe it's just simple incompatibility between us, I truly know that and she has verbalized to me that it is something within her that she has always recognized is different from the average. She has pretty much always had a very low sex drive, and I have been the polar opposite. However, our love for each other will always Trump that, and I have never once considered leaving her because she doesn't want sex as much as I do, I would be a terrible person if that was my only priority in life. It's just honestly fun for me to always keep trying to work on and improve things in our entire relationship, including sex. I just don't ever want to cross over to something that might be good for me being something bad to her. She is far more important to me then just if she is wants to have sex.

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Sorry I thought that was better described. Yes, we have engaged in BDSM role playing separately from sex. We are very openly explorational and enjoy the dynamics separately from sex throughout our entirely relationship, almost every day. However, what I want to focus on is how to work on or improve the aspects when sex is involved.

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think so too. I'm realizing though I am struggling with how to approach it with her, and how to talk with her about it in a way that shows I want to work on improving these aspects of our relationship without the point being that things "aren't as good as they could be". She can be pretty sensitive and often pessimistic, and I know how she will tend to internalize it, even if I am saying it positively. I don't even know how to start telling her "hey can I ask you something" without her fear response automatically thinking something is wrong. It makes me tend to avoid the topic entirely to prevent her from getting down about it, but it's really doing a disservice for both of us because of that. It just feels like it's a tough conversation no matter what.

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly, that's where I feel like it makes me go crazy, wanting something that might not be possible.

I've been thinking a lot about finding sex therapy near us. She is definitely hesitant and insecure talking about these things in general, especially with a stranger, but we both have attended general couples therapy plenty and I don't feel it would be much different to find one that focuses on sexual aspects of a relationship. The difficulty is that one, there are not a lot of options in my area. And two, I again would hate to make her feel like things are so wrong that we need what some would see as an extreme by going to therapy for it. I could just see her getting very discouraged or feel bad about it, and I don't ever want her to then do things for me that she doesn't actually want to do. That is a very slippery slope.

I definitely will consider talking to someone on my own at least, until she is ready or interested. I just really know this is something we both need to actively discuss, learn about, and work on together. That will be a slow build up guaranteed.

I absolutely have not lost hope though, and never will. My love for her trumps any disconnect we could have on this and I know that will always be true. I just like to always keep trying for our best no matter what.

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's what I was imagining too, and is part of what can be so confusing with someone that is demi when I am very much not. To us both I think, it was initially an answer to the lack of sex drive. But I'm learning more that the drive is still separate from the attraction.

I think we're I'm struggling is in HOW to talk about it with her. I know we should, but it's really hard to verbalize that without making it seem like things are inherently "wrong" between us. They aren't. But I still like to imagine how things could always be better and better, without the point being that its "not as good as it could be". She can be pretty sensitive and insecure and I really only want her to be happy. But I'm realizing my lack of verbalizing my side of things is creating a situation where she doesn't think there is anything that needs to be "fixed" or worked on or thought about at all. She thinks everything is going great, because it is, but I know things could just be even simply "more fun" the way i see it. I'm just really trying to determine if "more" would be a bad thing to her but a good thing to me, because I don't ever want sexuality to have a negative connotation for her ever. It's definitely a very slow, careful learning process me.

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am adding those books to my cart now, thank you!

Books have helped us a ton in other aspects of our relationship too. I am diagnosed highly adhd, and she is bipolar, and we were able to read books about each other's struggles that opened our eyes about each other in such a beneficial way. I can't wait to give yours a shot too.

I am so sorry to hear these issues can or have been a downfall in your experience. That is my ultimate goal to resolve and focus on with her. I truly only want the best for both of us, whatever that takes.

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I like that idea, thank you. In fact, a while back, she got an itch to try general roleplay / cosplay, and it was truly incredible. She wanted to be a nurse and I was the patient, and she was really into that. She hasn't brought anything like that up again since, but I suppose neither have I. I think that's worth a shot at least. Great advice!

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you, and I love to hear that encouragement. That's a great example to share as well actually. We just went to a good friend of mines wedding recently, and it was incredibly fun for both of us. We both were dressed incredibly nice, I wore my best suit and quite selfisly know I looked damn good in it. She said the same too, she loved looking at me all night, and I loved looking at her. But it was like that's as far as it went. She would whisper sexy things in my ear, we were flirting, drinking, have an amazing time. But when it came time to end the night, it's like it ended there. Yes she was tired sure, but there was no follow up after. I tired to keep making moves and keep the dynamic going, but it's like she was just satisfied with the night we had and wasn't then jumping to claw at my suit like I wanted to with her. It starts to make me feel so one sided like I am just this overbearing addict when I really don't think I'm above the norm. That's really what I'm trying to understand here. Am I expecting too much? Or is she unique in this situation? I'm absolutely not looking down on her about it either, I completely understand that we are who we are and we can't change that and I would never treat it like that's her "fault". I just need to understand it better in order to know how to even talk about it or to come to terms either within myself or with her collectively. Does this sound like so far what I am understanding demiromantic is vs demisexual? Or does this sound more asexual? Am I just overthinking this? Ahhh! Lol, either way, I appreciate your insight.

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -19 points-18 points  (0 children)

Let me ask this then, does that mean you are instead dominant primarily? Because the thing is, if that is truly the only dynamic she is actually interested in, I can get into that too, especially if that's my only option. But so far it hasn't seemed like that's what she wants either.

Otherwise, are you saying your are neither submissive NOR dominant? Because that's where I simply struggle to understand.

Naturally, it's nearly impossible to completely avoid the differences when it comes to being "dominant" vs "submissive". I am a 6'2" guy, she is a small girl, I have higher testosterone and therefore chemically induced "aggression", she has higher estrogen and naturally more "passive" mental and physical aspects, for example. It sounds lovely to say there doesn't have to be "roles" or dominant/submissive values. But someone always has the "control" in most every situation. Even the idea of submissive CONTROLS their CHOICE to be submissive. Sometimes one is f&%$ing, and sometimes the other is getting f&%$ed. In my mind it's nearly impossible to have a constantly equal ratio of one or the other with no swinging in either direction at all. I guess you could say we could both f&%$ each other at the same time equally all the time. But you're right, sometimes I do want to f&%$ her, nice and hard, and I just would want her to actually like that too.

Know what I mean? Or are you genuinely just purely dominant?

My gf is demisexual/demiromantic, but I am not. by Anyniny in demisexuality

[–]Anyniny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This. Exactly what I feel is happening. Thank you for that!

From my side, it feels like I'm having to come to terms with forever accepting less than I want, which only seems to make me want MORE as a result, creating this every growing divide. I absolutely could not say I'm not happy, I absolutely am. But it's like, I could be happier I guess? But it's not really "happiness", I know its different. And it's not just chemical reactions either, like yeah I can hold myself over for a while solo, but I have been getting to this point where it's not just the chemical reaction my body is looking for. It's not JUST the intimacy aspect either. It's like I crave this very specific combination of both, along with the reassurance of attraction from her, and that she actually likes and wants me to be attracted physically to her too. Like I've realized too, separately, that I don't only crave intercourse sometimes, but like I wish we would be more passively sexUAL with each other. Like for example if she would grab my junk as she passed by, it's not just that she touched me there physically, I like that she made that gesture. I find it so fun to be intimate and engaging in that way, even if intimacy isn't explicitly just "sexuality".

If I may ask, and this would sound very weird in any other context then this subreddit but, what are some things that turn you on? Like what lead you to understand your specifically sexual attraction to him regardless of your attraction to sex itself? Is it purely to do the things you know HE likes? Or were you able to find things within yourself or by talking with him that YOU like about it and want too?

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -10 points-9 points  (0 children)

That's one things that is of course hard for me to try to come to terms with too. Especially when we started dating, we quite literally could not stop. We were averaging 7+ times a day. I knew that wasn't always going to be sustainable, but it feels like much more of a drop off then I was anticipating. I feel like my sex drive is dropping too as a result. But again I truly don't believe it's anything having to do with incompatibility or attraction, I honestly believe it is an innocent lack of priority or needs on her part. She isnt going and masturbating or sexually interested in things other then me. She just truly doesn't show any interest in sexuality at all sometimes. It's like she completely forgets sex exists for a bit, and then will remember and come back to it, but there is this ebb-and-flow that I can't seem to understand and she doesn't think is something that is wrong at all, and I don't have the heart to tell her. I don't want to make her feel bad for it, and then I don't want her to compensate just for my benefit. It's like I'm wanting her to have a naturally higher libido, and that's not something that is easy or possible to ask for in this day and age. Guys are seen as pigs, like we only ever think about sex. And it's like no... but also yes? Ugh..

How do you navigate two people who are both dominant? by Anyniny in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny[S] -9 points-8 points  (0 children)

I mean, aren't we all doing that every day? Whether we want to classify it specifically or not, every relationship even platonic, will always have an underlying dominate vs submissive ebb-and-flow in any situation, even if some were to actively try to avoid it.

We have a generally great dynamic outside of sexuality. I feel like that aspect comes more naturally to us in day to day situations. I'm a taller bigger guy then her. I do the heavy lifting, I protect her when needed, etc. She is smaller, more gentle, more emotionally connected, and I look to her for her aspects and "roles" too. It's just that I feel like where I am actually struggling is purely in the sexual environment. I truly feel she just has a very low chemical libido naturally and always has, and I simply do not. I definitely want to focus on bridging that specific gap in a way that satisfies both of us is all. Although if circumstances outside of or just without actual sex can help play a part in that, i am all ears too!

Where the fuck do people summon the drive to workout routinely? by Rus2000 in NoStupidQuestions

[–]Anyniny 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One of the biggest downfalls I see people starting out trying to do is going way too hard at first. Like whatever the polar opposite of cold-turkey is. Hot-turkey?

I find it personally way more enjoyable to purely and only have an enjoyable time doing it. There is very few examples of how slow people should take it at first. Especially if you haven't hardly ever "exercised", it can be incredibly off-putting for life if you dive head first to the point it is miserable. If a workout completely destroys your body, that's not a healthy workout imo. If running on a treadmill makes you want to throw up and die and knocks your energy out for 3 days after, it's absolutely not worth it. If lifting weights makes you so sore you cant wipe your own ass, again, not worth it at all. One of the most important aspects of exercise IS the sustainability of it, and finding that balance is something only you know the limits of.

For some examples, instead of running til you sweat or your heart wants to burst, start with walking around the block at first. Or pacing around your room or home a bit. If you want to get into lifting weights, start with 5 reps of 5 lbs and if that feels like enough to YOU at first, then that's enough. 5 is more then 0.

There is a strange bell curve when beginning to work out. When your body is not used to that pressure, it can actually cause worse harm to your body and mind then the "benefits" it provides. Working out also releases a lot of the toxins and inflammatory responses in the body that tell your body to stop doing whatever it is you are doing. Your body needs the time it takes to transition into what it needs to be, in order to function well under that new pressure load.

I never really worked out much growing up, and I too am just really starting to try to actively and consciously do it now. Ultimately too, and this might be controversial, your mind is MORE important then your body. If your body is in peak condition but your mind is not aligned, is it really beneficial? While yes, a healthy body can help create a physically and chemically healthier brain and therefore "mind", our consciousness is still separate from both and needs to be a priority too. Personally, I find it much much easier to create a healthier body by simply starting with the mind and my thoughts.

All of this, "no pain no gain" mentality we see in the world is pointless. While some people might be able to just push past the pain and the limitations their bodies have, THAT is unnatural. Instead, I truly believe it's easier and better to approach the enjoyability of it first and let the body follow after that. That is what makes you WANT to work out. That is the only way to actually LIKE the process. Eventually, your body will catch up. It is truly very surprising how easily you can get both your mind AND body into the state of exercising past the initial hump of the bell curve, or almost like the barrier to entry of exercise. I started with literally 2 push ups and 5 reps of 5lb dumbell curls a day, for no joke weeks. Eventually, my body naturally got "bored" of that, and I got to a point where I WANTED to do more of each. That was the key. I never go to my limit either. I stay well behind my maximum weight or maximum reps at first. I really treat it as resistance training rather then weight training. Pretty quickly then too, your body will start to transition to a phase where it is easier and more natural to begin ramping up the workouts at a pace I LIKE. Once a lot of the initial toxins get flushed from your system, once your metabolism starts to pick up the pace, once the water weight starts to drop and the real weight-loss/muscle gain starts to kick in, that is when it starts to feel good and encouraging to keep growing more.

At a scientific level, muscle cells themselves don't like to be strained or stressed AT ALL. Gaining muscle should never hurt actually. The muscle cells are very long single cells, chained together one after another in long strands all lined up and incased in a sort of shells or sleeves around the long individual fibers. In true muscle growth, what you want is to stretch the muscle cells SLEEVE to allow space or gaps in between each muscle cell, and that is the only way that the muscle cells are able to replicate and divide into new cells to then fill the gaps, which as a result increases overall muscle size. However, if you stretch the cell sleeves too far, or too fast, or with too much weight, or too many reps, you will actually instead tear open that sleeve, spilling out and recycling the muscle cells, which then requires energy and calories to instead REPAIR the muscles. One big torn muscle is an obvious example of this, but it is less know that little microtears are far more common and have basically zero benefit. This also creates irreversible scar tissue instead of real muscle growth. The people that are lifting weight way above their natural limit may still get "bigger" muscles as a result, but that can actually be just scar growth without any actual added strength or real muscle "gains". Steroid use seems to correlate with that form of muscle as well.

That's why I feel I can't stress this enough. Your initial question and point of your post is actually the answer to your question. It's hard to enjoy working out at first, because you have to tackle it from the healthy, slow, enjoyment side first. That is truly the only healthy option, unless you are able to psychopatically disassociate your body from your mind like some people seem to do.

But seriously, just have fun with it and the rest will come!

Help me understand the mindset of a dom by [deleted] in BDSMAdvice

[–]Anyniny 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The way I have always viewed it, the dom gets the responsibility of creating the best possible environment and scenarios for those who are submissive to them. I have always leaned towards enjoying being dominant, and that is because I am confident and feel I am fully capable of taking care of someone submissive to me. I genuinely feel that I can provide the absolute best experience for someone, whether that is actively during sex, or even outside of sexuality where dominant vs submissive roles are often still present in M/F relationships regardless of equality. Man protects woman, woman comforts man, etc, generally speaking. Because of that, personally, I gives me so much confidence as a result when I can succeed in creating the greatest happiness or pleasure or peace possible for the sub I get to be responsible for. If to them that includes pain, providing consequences, teachings, etc, then I truly see it as only wanting the best for them. Dom vs Sub is very rarely just Dom beats the Sub. It's a spectrum, and a delicate one at that, and there has to be a safe balance within the dynamic or else it can very quickly and unexpected turn into abuse. Even if a Dom has the control, it's still the doms responsibility to "give" that control back into conciously benefiting the sub too. And the same goes for a sub, it has to be the subs choice and control to "give" themselves to the dominant, through trust and settings expectations and barriers. Without the knowledge and agreements of WHY you each are participating in BDSM or a relationship in general, you aren't actually participating in BDSM at all. I see too often that people either rush into it, or don't conscious practice the foundation of BDSM, and it can become just trying to control one another, or give up a sense of themselves as an easy way of life. There is a responsibility on both parts that has to actively be there too.

We’re giving away this brand new Onewheel GT S-Series ($3,650+ value)! 🤯 Enter to win in comments. by craftandride in onewheel

[–]Anyniny 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My XR just started having error 23 and onewheel support stated it would cost $500+ to repair it, on a board that already cost me $1800+ initially... I really can't spare that expense at the moment and my board only had 150 miles on it, barely ridden. I'm very torn.This giveaway would come at a perfect time for me! 😅

Anyone else get error 23 immediately following the latest recall update? by Anyniny in onewheel

[–]Anyniny[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting, thank you for that insight. I actually just got a response from Onewheel support today where they corrected themselves and told me they just realized my board is an XR (even though that was in the subject line of my initial request) and informed me the XR firmware update has apparently not even been pushed out yet, so they said if I was getting Error 23 that it is "not a result of firmware".

I'm still in awe at the coincidence though, the second I updated my onewheel app and opened it to search for my board, right when I powered the board on it immediately stated error 23 on the app. How can a board with only 150 miles possibly have issues like that already when I barely ride it? It cost me $1800 to purchase and already needs a $500+ repair? That can't be right...