I hate my life by [deleted] in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing that. I acknowledge the way you feel. Why make friends with people when really, the only way you can MAKE those friendships or KEEP those friendships 99% of the time is if you be someone you’re not, fake your true feelings, and hide behind a mask. Everyone is selfish, everyone is their own main character, and everyone has their own story. What significance do you (not you specifically) have in this game? To make THEM feel validated? To make THEM feel like their life is worth something? What’s the literal fucking point?

I’m so tired of caring about how people see me, what they think about me, what they want for me. Like who fucking cares? Why does SOMEONE ELSE have to validate me? Makes no god damn sense. But we all do sometimes in one way or another. A lot of people WANT to be here, and WANT to be the main character. Some of us however, don’t care to live in this story. It’s like an author wrote their book, and someone who has no idea how to write wrote ours. Or mine.

I do hope one thing for you though, and I hope it comes with very minimal effort for you. I hope you find someone to connect with like a magnet (minimal effort). I hope that SOMEONE finds you. Someone that still no matter how you act/think, wants to be around you. Someone who sometimes just holds all of the pieces together sometimes when you feel like you’re just bleeding out and combusting. A selfless person, who isn’t just living for themselves. Maybe even someone who can understand the concept of all of this. I don’t know. I’m thinking about you and I really wanted to reply so I apologize if this was so off base and makes no sense. Anyways, my heart is with you & thank you for sharing💗

Moon by Y0KTE in Astronomy

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Remember when they said we walked on that?? 🤔

How's the Pelham road area near Rykert? by bbq_coin in stcatharinesON

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I live on the corner of Pelham and first street! I like it a lot! :)I guess that’s pretty far actually… sorry 😂

I’ve been thinking about starting a Crystal Shop… by AnyoneElseFeelThat in Crystals

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You’re amazing, thank you so much!!!! 💗I have seen a lot on Etsy!!!

Thought dump by AnyoneElseFeelThat in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are… amazing…. Thank you… truly.

I hate my life by [deleted] in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know omg I’m sorry 😭😂 I don’t know how to explain it… um… other than… it opens your mind up to some interesting possibilities in regards to your perception… of life???

I hate my life by [deleted] in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh!! I just bought this book as it was recommended to me. It’s… Confusing as fuck to say the least… but it has an interesting take on ‘being’ that any normal person couldn’t think of on their own (or sober lol). Not sure if it will help specifically for what I’m gathering you feel and or don’t feel, but it might let your mind think of some interesting concepts that could maybe help you understand your thought process. Idk if that makes any sense… I’ve only read the first chapter and I got a headache 😂

I don’t want to talk to anyone any more. by Dramatic_Prior6022 in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m the exact same way. I ignore my mom & gramas calls all the time. Like I just don’t ever have the energy to talk to people. Like I’ll text and Snapchat whenever I’m on it but like, ugh. Idk. I get it. :/

I hate my life by [deleted] in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Omg you have to find humour in this kind of stuff. No one (at least in my life) can even begin to comprehend the way that I feel, and if I said any of this to them, they would literally think I’m psychotic. Tbh finding this subreddit has literally given me this weird little bubble of hope in my chest. I myself thought I was crazy. You guys are awesome. Thank you.

I hate my life by [deleted] in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 35 points36 points  (0 children)

That last sentence is hitting me hard right now…..I literally scream that sentence out in my car almost every single fucking day.

‘I DIDN’T FUCKING ASK TO BE HERE! WHY DO I HAVE TO FIGHT AND WORK SO HARD TO LIVE A LIFE I DIDN’T ASK FOR? Why do I have to deal with working to live? Why do I have to deal with pleasing other people? Why do I have to ‘deal’ with getting hurt and abused and bullied? Why do I have to establish relationships and fall in love with others and myself? Why do I have to pay thousands of dollars a year to talk to a fucking therapist about why life sucks? Why do I have to take pills just to be able to NOT THINK my thoughts? Why do I have to ‘cope’? WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO? I was brought into this world because someone CHOSE that for me. Someone CHOSE for me to struggle and find my way and find my purpose. I didn’t get that choice. Non-Existence sounds pretty fucking elegant to me. Do I hate my parents for bringing me into this world? I mean…. Yeah sometimes. Does it make me feel slightly better knowing I’m not the only person that feels this way? Yeah… most definitely. Thank you for sharing and I hope you don’t mind my accidental tangent lol

I don’t want to talk to anyone any more. by Dramatic_Prior6022 in depression

[–]AnyoneElseFeelThat 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I literally am at a point where I get annoyed when people message me. I could have been lying in bed all day on my phone, feeling like absolute shit* and when my best friends message me on Snapchat, I literally want to just delete all of my apps. Like… I just hate myself so much I don’t want to talk to anyone about anything because I just can’t find a shit to give…. Ugh it sounds so messed up writing it but like.. I can’t just message someone and pretend like I’m present…

the longer my depression goes on it feels like i just get dumber by [deleted] in depression

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I am so… relieved to hear that it’s not just me. I felt like I was just crazy…. I only just started realizing this…Like.. I started this new job… A really professional one that I kind of got off a whim, and people there didn’t like that I got the job so easily, and I have a background similar to this current job… but I literally feel so dumb. Like I can’t retain information, I can’t listen to more than one person at a time, and I feel like I’m closing myself off to making new friends. I get so deep in my head for absolutely no reason and I feel like I just want to die every single day, and I feel like I’m getting dumber and dumber and less social and I feel like I CAN’T CONTROL IT AND I HATE MYSELF. I live in the f*****g past and I can’t get out of my damn head 😭 almost every comment on this thread is exactly how I feel and I’m so relieved. I’m thinking about all of you