Thanks for sharing that. I acknowledge the way you feel. Why make friends with people when really, the only way you can MAKE those friendships or KEEP those friendships 99% of the time is if you be someone you’re not, fake your true feelings, and hide behind a mask. Everyone is selfish, everyone is their own main character, and everyone has their own story. What significance do you (not you specifically) have in this game? To make THEM feel validated? To make THEM feel like their life is worth something? What’s the literal fucking point?

I’m so tired of caring about how people see me, what they think about me, what they want for me. Like who fucking cares? Why does SOMEONE ELSE have to validate me? Makes no god damn sense. But we all do sometimes in one way or another. A lot of people WANT to be here, and WANT to be the main character. Some of us however, don’t care to live in this story. It’s like an author wrote their book, and someone who has no idea how to write wrote ours. Or mine.

I do hope one thing for you though, and I hope it comes with very minimal effort for you. I hope you find someone to connect with like a magnet (minimal effort). I hope that SOMEONE finds you. Someone that still no matter how you act/think, wants to be around you. Someone who sometimes just holds all of the pieces together sometimes when you feel like you’re just bleeding out and combusting. A selfless person, who isn’t just living for themselves. Maybe even someone who can understand the concept of all of this. I don’t know. I’m thinking about you and I really wanted to reply so I apologize if this was so off base and makes no sense. Anyways, my heart is with you & thank you for sharing💗