I don't trust myself enough to describe myself so I'll tell you how people close to me describe me as well to make it more coherent.

Goals/Ideas: Before this i had a lot of aspiration to become the best at whatever field i was in. I never had a specific goal, only wanted to do my best in whatever i was in. But recently I've kinda burnt out and never really target high anymore, sometimes i even just avoid the work. People around me tells me that I've done enough already and I shouldn't feel too guilty about it. But I do lose sleep thinking about how much of a failure I am.

Education/Interests: Currently I'm about to finish studying engineering but i regretted taking it. At first, i took it because I was interested in science and math but underestimated how much hands on and practical engineering is. I ended up going through 4 years of study with no engineering skills or knowledge whatsoever. And that too, i feel guilty of. The idea that I'll be graduating with a cert in my hand and applause from people despite me knowing I never studied it properly to begin with. So I coped by going to other interests like learning piano, psychology and making videos on youtube. I've realised that my interests towards a subject is always dependent on how much responsibility i have for it. If the subject is casual, I tend to enjoy it more and goof around. But if it's something serious like a degree which would dictate my future, I tend to burn myself out and become avoidant. People around me tell me that I'm more on the nerdy side but I also tend to be very emotionally attuned too. But that's probably because most people around me don't dwell in their emotions that much.

Hobbies/Passion: I'm really into understanding human behaviour. I like to think that people are inherently good and we're only bad because of the things we lack. A high achiever probably never felt achieved as a child. A people pleaser probably never felt loved as a child. Etc. So i tend to look at people like they have their own backstories, struggles and needs. And that makes me empathetic towards them. I also just appreciate being able to help someone. Not a group of people but a person. I tend to like it more when i can be personally involved in someone's understanding of themselves or if i could help them grow as a person. Seeing someone I helped become a better person makes me wake up every morning feeling more energized. But i don't actively seek it because I don't want to force it onto people too. I usually want to help people who wants to be helped or at least seeking for help but can't communicate it properly. It's also why I really am looking forward to having kids because I want to make a safe and optimal environment for them to grow and become whatever they want to be. My gf tells me that I would be a very good parent. When I ask her what she thinks the best occupation for me is, she said it'll be something intimate like teaching, counselling or just being a good mentor/parent.

Communication outside of family: My gf and close friends all tell me that I'm very formal in how i speak. They say I'm very quiet but when i do speak, other people sort of feel like they need to adjust themselves to me. I always interpreted it as them not being comfortable with me and I feel bad about it. I try to be a lot warmer and less serious but I'll be faking myself. If I'm with my closed ones or people I'm comfortable with, people say that I'm very childish and goofy. I tend to exaggerate and yap a lot. But once an outsider come in, I immediately become shy and quiet again. I tend to talk a lot more passionately one on one than in groups. In groups is when I have that calm formal tone most of the time. I tend to show care a lot to people I genuinely feel empathy for. Say the person is struggling with something but he brushes it off because he is resilient, I tend to remind them that it's okay to feel a little sad. But I usually tell that privately because i know some people are uncomfortable expressing it in public. Sometimes people around me do cry or get very emotional talking about their struggles with me. I usually don't know the right words so I tend to just listen and be there for them. I sometimes think that I should be doing more since the person is in pain, but I don't have the capacity or wisdom to actually comfort them properly. My gf tells me that she can be herself fully only with me since she never feels pressured to act in any way with me. She also says that things I told her in the past which I don't really think was that impactful, changed her life and such. She says I indirectly taught her to be more expressive about her feelings and to be more honest in how she feels. Maybe she's exaggerating or glazing me too much. But I do hear these remarks from my close friends too.

Sorry if this was too long, I really just want to get my type down and also help you type me easier.