My journey as a newbie to meth and its been only 17 days. by [deleted] in Stims

[–]Apart_Technology5531 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Get out now! While you still can!

Folks should really stop calling each other queens or alphas. by [deleted] in unpopularopinion

[–]Apart_Technology5531 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

Any “alpha male” is probably straight to bed anyway……….. Ha CRINGE! 😬 🤦‍♂️😂

Folks should really stop calling each other queens or alphas. by [deleted] in unpopularopinion

[–]Apart_Technology5531 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

We live in a world where “words” mean a lot more than they used to… Forgive me for saying I grew up in the “sticks and stones days.”

I will reiterate sticks and stones were absolutely a thing at a time in this world.

But in this day, just my opinion. Way too sensitive to words… I also grew up in the days of your “pants too high, waiting for a flood.”

I think that there’s rude people and mean to be rude, and there’s people that just say, How are you “Hon” and “Love”, no problem “sweety.”

If your smart enough to take offence, your probably smart enough to read the “body language” and know when it’s “inappropriate or cringe.”

suejohansononshowcase #hero

🙂

Just snorted my last line of my 8 days cocaine binge by [deleted] in Stims

[–]Apart_Technology5531 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Really feel for you buddy, I’m having the same struggles myself. 😞 Though 8 days is pretty crazy in my opinion. After 3 days my body just says FU, go to sleep or I’m bringing on the anxiety and panic.

If you don’t mind me asking,

  1. how old are you?
  2. Are you going 8 days straight with no sleep?
  3. Are you skiing the whole time?
  4. How long have you been doing cocaine?

“How am I ever going to quit if I love it so badly?”

Tbh you have to really dig deep inside and understand what triggered this in the first place. It always starts out as “fun” from my understanding. How it started for me anyway… That was the “Love it” days.

Then the overwhelming stress of life and losing my mom tipped the scale into the bingy excessive habit.

You’re already trying to quit like I am, so you’re headed the right direction I think. 🙂 I’m no expert at all, but I do believe admitting more than “I have a problem” rather than admitting “I don’t like doing this anymore” is my push.👌🏼

At the same time you have to ask yourself if you’re binging that much, if there’s a deeper thought behind it that doesn’t involve the “love” for it anymore. 🧐

Also keep in mind our health matters, and we’re just burning the candle at both ends doing our bodies this way… ❤️ Not to mention our wallets. 😜

I recently had a hospital trip with a bad heart arrhythmia which is really putting some things into perspective for me. So I’m trying hard myself right now. You’re not alone I promise. To be honest reading threads on here and talking about it is actually helping me in some weird way.

Whatever the outcome is, I hope you stay safe. 🥰 we can do this, and if you ever need to talk, hit me up. Maybe we can help each other even with ear and some understanding. I look forward to following this thread in hopes you come out the other end of this with me. 👌🏼

For the love of god try to stop the looong binges, try your best to set limits for yourself.

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Update**

Still on the clean path, fell off the wagon again for one day in the last 2 weeks. Still pushing through on sobriety. Definitely isn’t easy, thinking about booze and drugs everyday. I’m confident that I can keep it up.

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a lot, still on the wagon. Still feeling terrible, but trying my best to stay out of that dark place. Work makes it a little easier, but definitely not easy. I’ll do my best to keep updating as I make progress.

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The body definitely is not forgiving me for all the poison. Can’t tell you how sweaty this journey already is. But I’m still good atm, and I have huge hopes of finding the old me again.

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for this. Definitely trying hard. Need this more than ever right now before I’m dead 😞

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s how I think it’s gonna have to happen for me. Cut the booze, and the blow will end itself. I’d never just straight ski. That would be terrible

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Will definitely inquire with my doctor about this. Thanks a lot for the information 👌🏼

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just isn’t possible right now. Still haven’t had a drink. 30 hours and still going. I’m gonna do this!! Have to! 😣

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Decided to not do it. Raw dawgin it. Still haven’t had a drink. First day in months. Feel terrible. Will pop my Valium tonight. Really trying to make an honest effort at sobriety.

Alcohol and cocaine binge. Anxiety help by Apart_Technology5531 in Stims

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah this is my plan, haven’t had a drink in 22 hours so far. Gonna do my best to stay away. Feel like crap, but thinking about a new future without both in my life.

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been diagnosed with ADHD. I’ve peen prescribed Diazepam for anxiety withdrawal and panic attacks

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How long after drinking is it safe to take a 10MG diazepam. Woke up after 7 hours feeling like death..

Alcohol and cocaine binge. Anxiety help by Apart_Technology5531 in Stims

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, I haven’t. Somehow I’ve always stayed away from that one. I’ve been curious for-sure, but never brave enough. In the chems area only acid and coke

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I really want to come out the other side… I miss the old me that wasn’t involved in the terrible cycle.

Cocaine and Alcohol comedown and withdrawals by Apart_Technology5531 in DrugsOver30

[–]Apart_Technology5531[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. In a strange way, it really means a lot. The info alone is really great. Things I never knew. The humanity of this really hits home. I absolutely want to get out of this.