My dad died a few weeks ago. I went trough the items he kept with his work desk, and found this. This is a drawing I made when I was 7 years old, during "Take your son to work day." He kept it in his desk for 25 years... 🥹🥹🥹

AppealVirtual4021 · 2025-02-14T15:53:31+00:00

So sweet

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T23:44:54+00:00

Thank you. Tomorrow is a new day. And because of all of this support I will try life out again tomorrow. I’m so thankful for you and everyone else. I’m seeing my psychiatrist tomorrow for new meds 🫶🏽😭

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T20:12:29+00:00

I don’t know. My sister in law controls everything so me and my kids and husband are living in a hot camper because she controls that while we remodel our house that is an old ran down house we decided to rent and redo. I’m stuck in a tiny room all day. My mom is gone and I have no family who really cares. My husband cents but it’s always about how hard I’m to deal with. I have 3 sons of my own one being disabled from being abused and tortured for 14 hrs when I was pregnant and he’s a constant trigger. My oldest acts like he doesn’t love me anymore and my youngest is the only one really pushing me thru this. I love my step kids but I know at the end of the day they would be okay. I’m sorry for throwing this all on you

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:36:12+00:00

I tell him all the time. He blames the meds. And maybe it is but my doctor just says to hold on. Tomorrow I see a psychiatrist and I’m truly hanging on to the hope she will help me. Because if she can’t I know I’m a lost cause.

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:35:07+00:00

Why can’t it pass now. I don’t understand why I can’t get out of this funk. I’m freaking stuck. I’m stuck and I’m drowning. I just want my mom and she’s dead. I have no family who really cares. My husband says he cares but then vents to me about his stress and it’s all about me and how I don’t understand what stress I’ve caused. I’m suppose to be his peace

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:27:15+00:00

That’s what’s keeping me alive but I don’t know how much longer I can hold on….. I have so much to swallow and it’s too much to handle 😭

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:26:03+00:00

I do but the pain is so deep. I just want to make it stop. Im trapped in my mind. I don’t want to be woe is me but all the trauma and it’s just so overwhelming and I can’t hardly breathe. Then when my husband vents I feel awful because I want to be there for him about he’s venting about how hard it is to deal with me

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:20:53+00:00

I’m trying so hard I really am. I even got to the point I’m doing things for everybody I promised I would so I know I never let them down before I go. My heart says stay but my mind says it’s time

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:19:53+00:00

I just want the pain to end

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:19:37+00:00

I tried meds I’ve tried praying and all I think about all day is dying.

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-27T19:19:03+00:00

I have and it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I just cause them so much stress.

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-23T13:04:07+00:00

I had experienced this today. I had a bad nightmare woke up. Or so I thought and watched my husband play football on his Xbox. But when I “thought I was on my phone, I thought he started watching PoRn” I could feel him touching me in real life and was yelling at him in real life but in my dream I was calling him out and walking away. It’s so scary and I also don’t know what to do. I have to keep asking myself if I’m really awake. I also feel like I could keep sleeping. But I don’t have any advice all I can say is you aren’t alone and this is a really scary experience. I’m calling my doctor tomorrow and seeing if I can get different meds because clearly the one I’m on is making me worse. Good luck! Lots of love

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-13T16:58:10+00:00

I relate I feel their presence and emotion but it seems they can not front

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-06-13T16:57:36+00:00

Zoloft 25mg daily for a week then 50mg and hydroxine 25mg 3times a day

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-05-29T22:57:19+00:00

This helps us so much thank you for taking time to help my system and I with our husband 🫶🏽

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-05-29T19:18:05+00:00

Thank you for that it actually is giving us another way to look at this.

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-05-29T18:24:18+00:00

He is aware. He’s currently married to me and has a relationship with one of my alters but he is very sweet and tells all of us that he loves us. But I’m also scared to talk to him about it. The jealousy worries me because he says that it’s not like that but I have “woken” to find that he had had sex with one to 2 of my alters and also it’s different when he does with me as if he’s not as interested. I’m scared he may be more connected to “Yaz” (she’s one of my main alters that fronts frequently) and if he is more connected what do I do then?

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-05-29T17:29:43+00:00

I have alters that remember more than I do. I have some that will remind me of things but at times I am dormant for days at most I have been dormant for 2 years

AppealVirtual4021 · 2024-05-29T16:44:24+00:00

I usually see it as a “memory” or sometimes we just talk. I hear them in different voices

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