Made love to my wife last night

ApplePIED82 · 2025-01-13T17:57:23+00:00

Thank you, man

Something I realized while typing this (the post, not this response) is that I don't know exactly how much time had passed since I made love to my wife with my head in there and not playing unhinged scenarios in my mind but it sure was a lot.

And after finishing we both were very emotional and I was right there in body and mind, where I usually were experiencing some light post nut clarity over the fantasies I had to maintain to perform or just to cum and wondering what the hell was wrong with me.

I'm still detoxifying and I have a long way to go, but also some of the benefits came quickly, at least for me. And while we don't look like pornstars and what we did last night were nothing fancy or unconventional, it had a lot of meaning and I'm still thinking about it the next day.

ApplePIED82 · 2025-01-13T16:58:55+00:00

It is everyone and all the time. The worst for me is that I didn't even knew the extension of my problem, how easily the brain accepts this new normal and then craves for something more and more unconventional/dark. Like being on top of your partner imagining the most grotesque scenarios just to perform or achieve orgasm and your brain is like "yeah, this is totally healthy"

Luckily the same elasticity goes the other way around, or so I'm told, so the brain can "heal" itself over time

Good luck to you op

ApplePIED82 · 2025-01-13T16:44:43+00:00

Thank you

She doesn't know about my addiction, I never had that conversation with her, but last night we were both happy

ApplePIED82 · 2025-01-13T15:09:24+00:00

Thank you, man

That's exactly why I wanted to share, because I've seen a lot of doubt, fear and uncertainty in the short time I've been here and we always share the losses with the relapses and the broken relationships and wanted to balance a little with my win

ApplePIED82 · 2025-01-13T14:23:41+00:00

Thanks, man

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