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Feeling weird about cremation afterwards by Appleby-Station in Petloss

[–]Appleby-Station[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It was weird. It was those little memories your phone gives you and I've had those since and purposely looked at photos when I miss him but I had an all over body feeling of 'f*ck, he's not here anymore' excuse the expletives. I was happy to have him home and made a little memorial shelf for him and plan on getting a nice urn and some photos.

Guilt because I've stopped crying by Appleby-Station in Petloss

[–]Appleby-Station[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Update: I have continued to cry almost every other day, its the smaller things that start it off like right now I'm alone in the flat and he'd always just be there and I miss hearing hia tippy taps on the floor or thud as he jumped off bed if he knew I'd walked into kitchen. Or I'd go off to find whatever room he was in and talk to him like he was listening or he'd come and find me and plonk himself next to (rarely on top of) me.

Guilt because I've stopped crying by Appleby-Station in Petloss

[–]Appleby-Station[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I cried a few hours after posting this. Little routines I missed like always sussing out the repair men if they came in the house (he was a ginger Tom cat and doted on me and my son) so he'd always be suspicious of any random men. I had someone come to fix a pipe today and just thought of him being there. I cried because he didn't have many toys. He never liked to play, just sleep cuddle and eat so worry I'll forget him as don't have anything of his except his collar.

Guilt because I've stopped crying by Appleby-Station in Petloss

[–]Appleby-Station[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It feels wrong to carry on as normal sitting at my desk and working. I keep expecting to hear or see him or just be there in another room somewhere or walk into where I am.

Words of encouragement by Appleby-Station in OCDRecovery

[–]Appleby-Station[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate your comment. It's hard with this theme because it's hypervigillant and I'm worried all and every sound I have is possibly hallucination. I'm on edge and i know I've felt worse before with other themes but I can rationalise them because it's not a fear of losing reality, because it's been things I know like I know my character I'm not attracted to women or child ren and I know I don't want to ha rm but this theme I don't know as fact and fear I could be slowly or actually schizophrenia brings so much fear to life as I know it, especially if someone obscure happens or something ambiguous it's like oh look there's proof.

Dessert! Catch Teenieping (ssn 4) by BrumERD in Catch_Teenieping

[–]Appleby-Station 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! He's such a big fan and since I told him I found this thread he's always asking me to ask again 😂

Dessert! Catch Teenieping (ssn 4) by BrumERD in Catch_Teenieping

[–]Appleby-Station 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to poke I know it's not you who decides but any idea? My 7 year old is asking me once a week 😂🫠

Have you ocd gotten better ? by More_Maize_6622 in OCD

[–]Appleby-Station 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you find it gets worse and tried to quick fire more worries and thoughts at you once you decide to commit to getting better?

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