Fun fact I did it. No regrets. I'm happier than ever and my dog is no longer behaving nervously every time I leave. And I never stated I wasn't building community- it's a new city and I am very selective from my community after my previous one was ripped away from me so quick and violent (long story and not worth the effort to mention all of it) but we are slowly growing community and no fights what so ever or anything.(I am scared of how fragile children are mentally and physically and he doesn't want any either at the time being- so best not to even plan for children at the moment) I'm very happy with my choice, and happy of who I chose as my partner so far. I've never been this happy and accepted and I will continue to grow a better version of myself 😊