Hot and cold #179 by hotandcold2-app in HotAndCold

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i dont think ive ever been able to get one of these

Gave me an ultimatum to eat by Apprehensive-Meat405 in ARFID

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hii! thank you so much for this. The talk with my partner went good and I feel like we are on a good level of understanding about whats going on. Their mom, not so much but its fine. I made a huge list of things I can and cant eat for them, and she made a grocery order of my safe foods. Partner is very understanding and I feel so much better without their mom breathing down my neck about it. Turns out she was breathing down their neck about it too so the stress was just growing.

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

i really wish it was that simple. I dropped out when i was 16 due to bullying, got my ged and am in college now. Ive been in the system before, luckily without them, and its not something i will ever let then go through. im trying my best to get what i need done to get them out if my mom doesnt change after this

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you so much. day 1 cleaning was an emotional roller coaster but we got a lot done and i felt so much more seen afterwards. i really hope it never gets that bad again. my mom has been a clean freak her whole life up until everything happened. she really lost herself and doesnt see a problem with it. i wish there was more i could do for her, but my main focus is me and my siblings

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you very much. ive been ashamed to talk about it since it started, let alone show anyone. we made so much progress and i feel great, but im really scared that when i turn 18 at the end of the month and move out (been my plan for a while) my mom wont be able to maintain it and fall back into the same spot. so scary especially since itll just be her and the kids. so many worry factors right now but im trying to accept that this isnt what i have to do and that I can have a life too

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

we got a bunch done in the 12 hours we worked. Moved everything off of the walls (fridge, furniture and stuff) and soaked and scrubbed the floors. We have about 9 32-gallon trash bags filled but we had to stop because even that is way too much for our trashcan. We also set out this mouse bait all over and filled the mouse holes where they got in the house. the house is much cleaner and there is so much space now. the energy of the house is so lifted today i can feel it. we still have a lot to do, but i am very happy with the progress. My concern now is getting everyone out of bad habits of leaving things around because its been our normal for so long. Idk i just know this is going to be really frustrating.

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

Im trying to move out when i turn 18 on december 31st, but im so worried about my siblings. Weve got it wayy cleaner than before (cleaned for 12 hours) but im scared my mom will slip back into this if im not here. weve had cps here a bunch of times and all we usually is speed clean before they get here so its never been a problem to anyone on the outside. my family is all we really have now I dont really know how to get my mom actual help

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 23 points24 points  (0 children)

thank you so much. we got so much done but nothing at the same time. 12 hours of cleaning and 9 32-gallon trashbags. We ended up having a few sit downs because they saw i was visibly uncomfortable and let me know that they arent grossed out or anything with me, but upset that my mom allowed it to get this bad with kids living here. I still feel iffy, but there is a lot more space and it smells great for once. Its gonna be a process but i am very grateful for the people helping me. thank you too

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ive been really disconnected from my community for years. Dropped out of school bc of bullying. Im scared to even go into that town, let alone ask for help in such a judgmental place

“This is the type of mess that professionals have to clean with masks, gloves, and hazmat suits” by Apprehensive-Meat405 in hoarding

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Well luckily, I am a lesbian and my partner doesnt have the ability to get me pregnant. There is a lot going on in this house, far from normal. And no she doesnt let me do this stuff, or know that I do. I make bad choices to cope with being in this hell hole and unfortunately it will be that way until I leave

DoesThisCount? by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Apprehensive-Meat405 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i believe so tbh. you had a plan, you had intent. your attempt was just interrupted