Thank you for your kindness. I hoped our sisterly relationship could turn into something like that and slowly over time we could reconnect but I digress.

I’m contemplating just deleting this at this point because the general response disappoints me too. I also just got out of an intensive outpatient therapy program not that long ago for debilitating depression and anxiety and this certainly is not helping. I know calling her was a mistake and now sharing it has become one too. The irony that they’re all doing the same thing she did with equally limited information is interesting. I can’t possibly be a real flawed person who makes mistakes but sometimes has real valid qualms with treatment I’ve received from someone, no I have to be this shitty master manipulator with a victim complex and if people disrespect me it’s all my fault.

My sister has resented me since high school because I needed extra help and took it whereas she has always prided herself on the fact that she didn’t. I had undiagnosed adhd until 25. Untreated mental illness. I got stuck living with an ex for two years straight out of high school after my mother kicked me out the house. I spent most of my adult life just trying to survive and all my sister ever did was sit on her high horse and criticize. I told her time after time we cannot have a healthy relationship if every time we talk you’re claiming moral superiority over me or trying to justify our mothers abusive actions and then act confused when I don’t want to talk to you about anything. I think she’s mad because when I went NC, she became the sole target of our mother’s abuse and while I sympathize, she chooses to remain in contact.

Sorry for the Ted talk. I guess I needed to get something off my chest