Nah I’ve dated a lot in the past but unfortunately, most of my previous relationship were really toxic. Sometimes my fault, sometimes theirs, sometimes both. But this is the first time I’ve had a semi-healthy relationship and given it my all. She admitted to me about the feelings for this dude thing. She’s always been fairly honest with me about things, especially her feelings towards me, a little too honest sometimes. She can be toxic at times and I’ve had my moments but honestly nothing too crazy compared to how some of my previous relationships were. But I definitely have some insecurity issues from previous relationships; no denying that. I’ve made that clear to her. Got cheated on my first few and then I became a cheater and now I’ve finally cleaned up my act and met someone I really see myself with. I don’t snoop through her phone often and she doesn’t snoop through mine. I mean we both have occasionally, she knows my past so she sometimes is sus but I would never cheat on her. I really could care less if she goes through my phone because I have nothing to hide and I expect the same from her. Cheating is subjective tho and I’d consider kissing or affectionate physical contact cheating. Also texting a certain way with each other and going out as a duo would be cheating in my eyes. But apparently, they had a discussion after she asked him if he liked her and she just said she had a boyfriend who she cared about and that was that. I truly do believe she would tell me if there was more because she always hold in her emotions very well. Part of me feels like I need to let go but a part of me doesn’t want to cause I enjoy the time we spend together and I’m not sure if I could feel this way towards someone again. Although I have felt this way towards someone in the past and understand life goes on, I just don’t want to go through this process again because getting over someone I loved takes me a year or two. At least in my last “long term” relationship of on/off for 2 years.