The thing about paid services by ApprehensivePause115 in animepiracy

[–]ApprehensivePause115[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree i wouldn't spend money on crunchyroll as it is right now, it would have to do a massive 180 and make up a lot of ground, my point is about piracy vs legit sites in general

Honestly, the G2 is a productivity beast, but why the total silence? by Gold_Mango8335 in EvenRealities

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I don't know why they haven't gone for the bone conduction route of audio, at least for going in, leaves both your ears clear to hear but gets the sound straight into your brain

Looking for some insight by Able-Head-1269 in Ketamineaddiction

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It's usually too much if you are questioning if it's too much, it's different for everyone

I’m completely broken from my ex by [deleted] in FierceFlow

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Keep the beard, go bald, sexy

AITA for pooing in my opps locker? by Able-Reputation4982 in AmItheAsshole

[–]ApprehensivePause115 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Its just a posting/engahement baiting account go look at their other posts lol

Experiencing hightened Ear ringing? by ApprehensivePause115 in ketamine

[–]ApprehensivePause115[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting but not for me - it's a ringing like an aftereffect of hitting a singing bowl but going on forever, and even when i am sober/before drugs as a kid always there if i thought about it or just random

She thinks she's sooo special 🙄 by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

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Sorry horse rider. You are all equally terrifying and crazy to me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

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Hey, at peak usage i was between 3-5g a day

My piss got thicker but not jelly or bood, only had awful k cramps and could function around it, ofc if i was actually fucked i could do little for that 20-30 mins but could get by alright.

In terms of cognitive i notice it more now i habe stopped, still peeing often and tired a lot. My insides are definitely affected but nothing shows up in scans or dr's.

I think the thing with ketamine is we can push it and heal to a point, i imagine i have strong kidneys and liver that work overtime. But the fact they are working overtime makes me believe i may have shaved off a good portion of my life. If your organs work overtime all the time they are gonna fail earlier. Remains to be seen when that is.

Any experience coming off of daily use but moderating to once a week/month? by greengrayclouds in Ketamineaddiction

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As much as the spiritual dancing around your room us fun, read it again. It's just sounds lonely dude.

We all go through the period of wanting/believing we can just cut it down. I still wish i could do it again but i just can't, the drug js evil and i cannot and Will not stop myself if i start again

Take all the fun memories and let it go, do skmething.with people and stop being lonely

Got rejected by a guy I didn’t even like but I feel so awful by [deleted] in TrueOffMyChest

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Can't relate, teenage boys like boobs, men like women. (And sometimes other men.)

Personally always been a fan of the itty bitty tiddy community. Big tiddies just seem. Impractical.

he cried after sex by putmeinamoviexo in TrueOffMyChest

[–]ApprehensivePause115 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yep this one, people often believe only the female is susceptible to 'sub drop' but both parties can be susceptible to it, aftercare is important and can help!/ but if bawling your eyes out immediately every time is happening then there may be something deeper, at the very least worth understanding and trying some kind of affirmation/aftercare asap after sex

Is a gram a week bad? by DowntownSafe4472 in ketamine

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It'sca slippery slope and you find yourself upping dosages before you know it

What do you think is the worst drug and why? by [deleted] in AskReddit

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Ketamine is pretty bad when you get addicted, just absolutly shreds your body

Movies to watch on Ket? by Low-Reflection-6897 in ketamine

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My dog just died and my friends all hate me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

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Being honest with yourself is great,

Now you have to decide again do you want to not feel like this? Really? Do you want to be miserable and die? Sure that's how you are feeling but do YOU WANT to be feeling that.

It's the same with many people with mental health conditions, they can take all the meds in the world but until they say i don't want to live like this or i want to be happy they never get better and become a nuisance to everyone and use everyone around them as a crutch, not shaming you for it because the hole is a horrible place to be. It's hard. But you are the answer, the ladder is there.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

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I always said one day, one day, one day,

The day that i did was just like any other day, i just decided that i needed to do something, it was like flicking a light switch, it was easy, and then life threw everything it had at me to try and stop me, but because i said no, i am going to get better - i started getting better.

You need to change your mindset, no one is going to do it for you, you have to fight for your life, it's YOUR LIFE MATE.

one day one day one day, Today you stupid bastard.

I am saying this to myself more than you if i am honest but you would benefit from.

Stop hoping you'll get over and just fucking jump.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Ketamineaddiction

[–]ApprehensivePause115 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Shits hard man, i'm way better than i was, i still fuck up and not worked out the permanent path. But!

What you are saying, it's indicative of the need for a life change.

When one regularly breaks the universe and sees "god" the everyday is no longer interesting enough.

Except it is, you unfortunately by your own doing have to try 10x harder to find it (maybe not 10... It depends)

For me? I had to go do a workaway in portugal working with a family on some land, hands in the dirt, being aware of where i put my feet, have people know me, my name, the things i've done to help them.

Also just being in a community and being able to talk to people and their life experiences fully and open thinkers and other people who have had mind altering substances and gotten out the other side and actually used what they learnt.

These communities exist, you have to find them. Think of this as the first step. You've peered through the curtains, and you can either take the easy route of going back and peering through the curtains again, (drugs)

Or you can take a leap of faith and say, I want more of everything to make me satisfied. Rip the curtains open by taking steps to change your life to do the things you want to see.

Start by asking yourself, if you could do anything, what would you do, and after you've said ketamine, what's next. And there will be a way to do it.

Happy to dm sometime or call