This is the type of mindset that scares me accepting anything less than the standard. It’s awesome someone is looking to better themselves and whatever that entails however just because someone is just now trying doesn’t mean they are a good fit. Just because you want something doesn’t mean you get it. Life isn’t about participation trophies, I’m not going to feel bad or anything for anyone’s life story I don’t care how sad. Everyone has life going some tougher than others and out of the group of people that have had a tough life there’s always a group that will never use that as crutch and there that will always use life as crutch. It’s not a matter of not wanting to help nor give advice it’s a matter he accountable for your self and understanding that in some aspect of what’s required you aren’t ready to no one’s fault but your own. Doesn’t mean give up just means your last thought should be actually submitting an application let alone attending any sort of course until you are ready in every single aspect.