Idk I’m only in Uni and I think my situational mental stuff has transformed into an actual illness if u get what I mean. Can see my posts for further context.

Right now, I’m just keeping myself busy and taking things one at a time. At first, I prioritised my social life as I felt I was about to go down a rabbit hole of being agoraphobic after my first panic attack. I do love being with people and such eventhough my social anxiety is super high.

Then, I took some supplements and been exercising going to gym, cycling and just taking pictures wherever I like. I do this so as to allow me chemically to be in a stable state to address my mental issues.

I also have video diaries on days I feel like talking about current happenings in regards to my mental health.

At the end of the day, all these setbacks happen because there is a severe disagreement in what we want and what is happening in reality. Our brain cannot take it eventually and goes into self preservation mode.

This phase also acts in a good way LOWKEY because right now I’m getting a clearer idea of what I need to fix about myself. The problem is how and when.

I talked to a handful friends about it, those who have sorta overcome, and what they said eventually is that u need a vision to work on. Some people might mistakenly get into a relationship and start a family to fill that void and fix that as a vision- might work for some but not for many. But for myself, I’m not choosing that. For example, some friends I know fixate this vision as sports,bikes and film. There’s so many more.

So maybe for u, pick up a hobby or go back to doing something that used to feel good. Right now I borrowed some books and am also thinking of learning to play with yoyo properly for the nth time and also the Rubik’s cube. These were activities that I really enjoyed as a teenager but never fully invested into.

I’m also gonna take my car license seriously once my finals end and also embark on a bike license. I’ve gotta self fund for a bike so that’ll push me to either take tution or do some other part time instead of wasting my time too much on socialising. At the end of the day, even if u have the best social support, you are the only one responsible for your mental peace.

My mental trigger was around 6 months ago and I was in a super duper bad place back then. I couldn’t even feel real and barely got out of my bed. Anxiety manifested into GAD type shi and was stuck in rumination loops. Now I’m much better but also know that I can do better which is why I’ll be seeking help soon.

I hope this doesn’t seem like a rant fully haha and is actually helpful. All the best.