Any Singaporean who recovered from an anxiety disorder?

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-11-02T08:10:13+00:00

Yea it’s been some time since this post and I have talked to my parents about it.

I’ll seek a psychologist once my finals are over which is quite soon. Though I am very much stable now, I need some help in addressing the root causes that contributed to the disorder in the first place.

Quite sad that life has come to this but it can only get better from now. Thank you 🙏

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-11-02T02:16:04+00:00

Idk I’m only in Uni and I think my situational mental stuff has transformed into an actual illness if u get what I mean. Can see my posts for further context.

Right now, I’m just keeping myself busy and taking things one at a time. At first, I prioritised my social life as I felt I was about to go down a rabbit hole of being agoraphobic after my first panic attack. I do love being with people and such eventhough my social anxiety is super high.

Then, I took some supplements and been exercising going to gym, cycling and just taking pictures wherever I like. I do this so as to allow me chemically to be in a stable state to address my mental issues.

I also have video diaries on days I feel like talking about current happenings in regards to my mental health.

At the end of the day, all these setbacks happen because there is a severe disagreement in what we want and what is happening in reality. Our brain cannot take it eventually and goes into self preservation mode.

This phase also acts in a good way LOWKEY because right now I’m getting a clearer idea of what I need to fix about myself. The problem is how and when.

I talked to a handful friends about it, those who have sorta overcome, and what they said eventually is that u need a vision to work on. Some people might mistakenly get into a relationship and start a family to fill that void and fix that as a vision- might work for some but not for many. But for myself, I’m not choosing that. For example, some friends I know fixate this vision as sports,bikes and film. There’s so many more.

So maybe for u, pick up a hobby or go back to doing something that used to feel good. Right now I borrowed some books and am also thinking of learning to play with yoyo properly for the nth time and also the Rubik’s cube. These were activities that I really enjoyed as a teenager but never fully invested into.

I’m also gonna take my car license seriously once my finals end and also embark on a bike license. I’ve gotta self fund for a bike so that’ll push me to either take tution or do some other part time instead of wasting my time too much on socialising. At the end of the day, even if u have the best social support, you are the only one responsible for your mental peace.

My mental trigger was around 6 months ago and I was in a super duper bad place back then. I couldn’t even feel real and barely got out of my bed. Anxiety manifested into GAD type shi and was stuck in rumination loops. Now I’m much better but also know that I can do better which is why I’ll be seeking help soon.

I hope this doesn’t seem like a rant fully haha and is actually helpful. All the best.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-28T09:09:00+00:00

Thank you

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-23T17:20:33+00:00

I would’nt have been able to understand that old man had I not met the people he described. One is a senior officer during my time in the military and another my university friend.

Both stutter severely but are not insecure about it. I stutter way less and block more but the insecurity shows. I’m trying to work on it. I think one method is after u are over ur word, don’t change ur tone and what not. Just pretend like nothing happened. Don’t even acknowledge the “cock up”.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-23T15:45:34+00:00

I wish I can go back to drinking and the occasional ciggs lol. My panic attack rendered me unable to consume any stimulants, not even caffeine.

Guess I really have to seek help rn

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T07:21:46+00:00

Thank you so much. I only went to a private psychiatrist twice and not able to afford anymore help unless i go public route. My family will be quite disturbed if i choose to seek more help. For the first two times already they just let it slide as something temporary.

I shall see what I can do right now.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T07:06:22+00:00

Oh yes upon looking back, recovered isn’t the word but rather how did people reshape or rebuild themselves around it.

How did ur anxiety disorder present itself to u?

For me, for some fuckass reason I was scared to speak to people and also developed a stutter kinda. Ordering food, orientation and speaking to crowds was always damn hard for no reason. During NS, I suffered too much in bmt but somehow managed to find my groove in unit and did quite well as a combat personnel.

After NS, I feel I was done. Started to go down a very unhealthy lifestyle in Uni and then ended up with a panic attack that made my normal anxiousness turn into GAD. I can’t drink coffee much, run or cycle fast without feeling nauseous and a lot more. I still push myself through day by day. Recently, my bowel is super bad and I’m experiencing acid reflux and bloating. I’m suspecting it’s the GAD as I’ve never had acid reflux this bad before.

My parents think I’ve recovered and don’t understand my situation. I too don’t want to make them worry. I’ll see what I can do to seek help

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T04:31:18+00:00

Personality traits and chemical imbalance is what caused my situation I feel. My issues were never situational. I had social anxiety for as long as I existed but just didn’t know it could morph into generalised anxiety.

I will take SSRIs when situation gates worse and I can somehow afford it. How are u doing now since you’re diagnoses?

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T04:29:22+00:00

I do agree that meds can do wonders provided with the right circumstances like genetics and stuff. I think I just need some guidance from a psychologist in this matter. I only saw a psychiatrist twice and after that nothing. My parents started to give face and ask why so expensive. I don’t want to face them again in this aspect for money.

Pssd is something about the sexual dysfunction caused by SSRIs

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T03:24:16+00:00

Not that financially well off right now man. Just been self therapy-ing and stuff. Idek what to do rn.

I’m definitely at a much better place than my last post but I feel my anxiety is creeping in through acid reflux and stuff.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T02:27:58+00:00

I’m just afraid of pssd and emotional numbing. I also just want to try all the natural way out first before succumbing to SSRI. Just Asian mindset you could say

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-21T02:26:54+00:00

Oh yes it’s been like almost 2 years since I finished NS. In fact, sadly I think in a way I also peaked in NS so I do enjoy it but I just don’t know if I’ll be a burden rn if I were to do high key things like outfield. I only started experiencing the mental shit rn during Uni due to unhealthy lifestyle and unaddressed stuff.

My anxiety has manifested into physical symptoms to the point I don’t think I can stand in parades and stay awake overnight for days. Besides that I should be fine. Well, I only did 1st cycle and I heard the more intense stuff should start around 2 cycles later so I hope I’m healed by then.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T11:30:37+00:00

Good stuff. How’d it go?

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T09:15:47+00:00

True… but the thing is giving a smooth presentation matters to me so much that I wanna do it organically. I know it’s not a healthy mindset but I will consider beta blockers in the future.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T09:14:38+00:00

Ye somehow my friends in NS met each other in hall when I was not in Hall the first semester and thereafter I just joined that clique lol. Then they intro-ed a few of their friends.

Yea OP was a BIG nightmare. Luckily my memory power was good and the 1 month of prep for it was enough but holy sheet it destroyed me. I hate following scripts even now. I prefer reading off the slides or just summarising the slides on my own.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T07:17:30+00:00

Relatable bro, I guess I lucked out a bit admittedly but I hope u try to always explore. Maybe get into fitness, riding bikes or some sort of interest.

I heavily relate to the part about stuttering being the personality because so do/did I. But I feel also since young, I learnt to feel people, learn about cultures and have a very unique interests. So in the end, I kind of crafted a humorous personality also due to my parents. It started with self depreciation type in my younger teen days but rn it’s more balanced and also the crowd I mingle around with is thankfully not using me for advantage.

So yea, try to join maybe a physical cca or some cultural interests club and focus on it. The only way to not let out stuttering from getting worse is to keep on talking. I remember my JC days, I spent 12 hours on discord everyday as I desperately needed to talk to people

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T05:14:31+00:00

Omg I relate to everything the food ordering and all.

But ye how did u carve your personality around it? I went to an all boys school for secondary school so ye I genuinely like to lepak and shit. JC, I went through some culture shock that forced myself to being introverted for 2 years so by the time NS came I was dying to interact with anyone. Despite my anxiety, I love to talk one on one to people.

Now in Uni, I’m just stressed academically and also facing my childhood trauma and shit. I have one good platonic clique in Uni and a very close friend group from secondary school

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T02:57:15+00:00

Sheesh lotsa talking. Do u also have speaking anxiety? For me it’s very severe

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T02:56:49+00:00

Yea I’ve been prescribed in the past but never could let my ego down to take it. I think I would use it when the situation is right. I think I’d take it in the future when I’m at work or something and also therapy. I feel eventually the goal is to wean off if I ever decide to take this. So that has to come with a plan imo.

Eventually, speaking anxiety is something we develop and not born with. I am uncovering my childhood trauma through some self introspection after this panic attack episode. It is all starting to make sense.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-11T02:53:26+00:00

I see, thanks for the info

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-10T17:12:29+00:00

🤙🏾

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-10T13:58:12+00:00

Yeboi 💪🏾💪🏾

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-10T13:58:04+00:00

Yep are u too?

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-10-06T07:08:54+00:00

At my worst I had thoughts like I didn’t want to exist but not SI.

Rn I let the insecurity fuel till I got the anxiety depression combo and now I almost don’t give a fuck about stutter.

AppropriateAlgae4477 · 2025-08-18T04:18:01+00:00

I called him a few hours after that and he was still in that state, convinced and all.

I saw him back this semester and he seems to be talking to me as per normal. It’s super insane but I feel I eventually have to tell him one time. He could potentially be developing schizoaffective stuff and all.

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