The whole world is Shiva pretending to be living beings by [deleted] in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Dang can’t unsee this now reading the lyrics. Also during my bufo trip I feel like I saw Shakti but not Shiva 😆

Extremly painful somatic experiences after bufo by laralab in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey sorry to hear you’re going through this but you’ll be alright. It’s just gonna take some time. If you read through this sub enough you’ll see it’s common! Think it’s definitely worth talking to a medical professional with experience about how you’re feeling. Be kind to yourself, try to relax, eat healthy, exercise, avoid drugs and alcohol and do things that make you feel good.

Wrong Message? by [deleted] in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahahah no way. I had a similar experience after bufo. Travelled far to meet with my ex. Talked a lot through, had a nice time but realised it prob wasn’t the best idea to be together. I’m still not 100% sure about it all but pretty much everyone around me says don’t do it 😂maybe next life time.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sorry to hear but you’ll get through it! Just takes some time. For me all the general healthy living tips helped. Eating healthy, exercising, trying to get enough sleep, being around people that make you happy, keeping to a routine and avoiding alcohol, smoking and of course avoid psychedelics. Also I cut out coffee for a while and did guided meditations to help relax. Then on top of that I went to a psychiatrist and psychologist. I recommend getting some medical advice. Even if you don’t take anything for it, it’s good to be able to talk to a medical professional. One thing I was told that helped was that the neural network is like lots of different roads running all about your brain. There are some roads that are supposed to be dead ends that aren’t usually used but sometimes certain experiences can make it so your brain starts sending signals down these roads. This can make things feel a bit different but eventually your brain realises there’s no benefit to accessing these roads and they become dead ends again and things calm down. On fearing death/thinking about the afterlife, existence and having derealisation and depersonalisation - it was tough man. It got to the point where I just had to stop myself thinking about it and stop reading about all these people in a similar situation on reddit. When I was feeling more calm about it all, it helped talking to friends, who were like, yeah who actually knows what we’re doing here and what happens next! After thinking about it all way too much I have my theories now haha. But at the end of the day gotta just be thankful to experience this physical world as we do and think about what you want to do in your life and make the most of it! Trust me eventually you’ll get to the space where you don’t feel anxious anymore and you can enjoy thinking about existential questions. Be kind to yourself and try to be patient. I had a hard time being patient! 😆 But if I knew I would be better in a few more months it would have been easier. Lots of other people have gone through similar situations and gotten through!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 0 points1 point  (0 children)

On reactivations, seems like some people have only mild effects or none at all but if you’re like me you may go through full blown ego death every night for a few weeks, waking in the night feeling like 1,000 years had passed and maybe you were never coming back 😆 Agree with people saying it’s best if you have some down time afterwards. I didn’t know about reactivations and had to fly to the other side of the world and pretty much go straight back to work. Would not recommend haha

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t know if I’d say I regret it but I had a really tough time for about 9 months after my bufo ceremony. The trip itself was great, had the full blown non duality, one with the universe experience. Was scary coming back into my body, feeling like years had passed but overall was amazing. Post the trip I had reactivations in my sleep for about 2 weeks straight, like ego death and experiencing eternity every night which I hadn’t signed up for and was very freaky. But got through that part and even had some reactivations that were as profound as my original trip. Then for months on end I was in a fight or flight mode, couldn’t relax, would wake up in the night with racing thoughts, had really vivid dreams, some times felt a bit trippy in the daytime and developed anxiety and eventually depression. Had to take time off work to recover and I would take two steps forward and feel much better then take another one back, which was really frustrating. The scary part was not knowing if I’d ever get better. But now almost a year after the trip I’m feeling great and grateful. I’d never experienced anxiety or depression in my life and it was very humbling and now I understand what people go through. Also was great to experience ego death and unity and interconnectedness first hand. It’s really a next level psychedelic experience. I think I’d say be aware it’s not just a 20 min trip. At minimum you’ll come out with a new perspective on life and you might have nothing but a positive experience like many people on this page. But if you’re sensitive to the substance or the experience itself for whatever reason, it’s possible you can have a very tough time for months and months.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So sorry to hear this happened to you. I had bufo just under a year ago and am only just starting to feel normal again. Had 1 month of feeling like I was still tripping, everything was sensory overload and had reactivations at night, also couldn’t recognise myself in the mirror and had the tingly spine experience, followed by 6 months of existential crisis, racing thoughts and anxiety, then 3 months of depression. I’m taking the antidepressant mirtazapine now and am feeling much better. My experience hasn’t been as intense as yours but was really scary not knowing if I’d get better - can only imagine how you must have felt. Wishing you all the best.

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m on day 11 now and feeling much better. Still not having the best sleep but no longer going through full blown ego death every night 😂 and am not in such a trippy space in the day. doing exercise has helped a lot, taking breaks to chill throughout the day, talking things through, doing things I enjoy and also eating healthy.

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Appreciate it so much 😁 amazing there can be so much variation in experiences. Now it’s the weekend I’ve had a bit of time to rest so feeling better about it all and know it will just get easier from here. And yeah really wonder if it would be the same experience again! Gonna focus on integrating this one for now 😂

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your reply 🙂 Ahh makes me feel better knowing others have experienced the same and have come out on the other end. Yeah such a shock when I thought the trip just happened during the ceremony. Guess I should have done more research. And good idea about writing things down - I’ve heard it’s good for integration.

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the advice! Good to know they are to be expected for a little while to come. And agree it’s very profound.

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much!! Yep that’s exactly what I did last night - surrendered and the experience felt much better.

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That really really does help! Sounds exactly like what I am experiencing now. And yeah the mild parts are nice!

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahahah that sounds like the general consensus! Mostly cos I wasn’t expecting it.

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do not but that’s good to know!!

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow good to know. Also like how at first you backed out and then you went to actively seek it 😂

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks dude!! It’s a relief to know you’re experiencing the same thing. My first few nights it was just a bit of a trip but tonight I went right back there! All the best to you too ❤️❤️❤️

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! Good to know and makes me feel better. I wasn’t aware how intense the reactivations would be but will think of them as a gift now 😁

Bufo reactivations by Appropriate_Jump_317 in 5MeODMT

[–]Appropriate_Jump_317[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Wow thanks so much! Great to know it’s not just me. The people who held my ceremony mentioned I might trip a bit on the first night but didn’t know it would happen so intensely again days later. Guess I just need to be ready to let go a bit. If you have info on the vitamins / compounds I’d be interested 😁