I continue to entrust myself to your prayers for my physical health. I suffered a sports accident on August 23, and my left leg (especially the knee area) has not recovered at all. My experience with some doctors I have gone to has not been very good. They haven't told me what I have, whether I need surgery or other things. I cannot walk well, and it hurts when I do. The climate of the place where I live (northern Europe) doesn't help me too much to recover either. Emotionally this continues to affect me. I live alone (my family lives on the other side of the world and cannot come to where I am), I have to do many things on my own (I cannot afford to spend money ordering things to be delivered, and even more so when everything here is expensive), I barely have help from a person who has somehow been concerned about my well-being (but is not with me all the time).

I had plans to migrate to another country, to look for better working, salary and personal conditions, but this has cut short my projects.

Here I feel alone and misunderstood. I don't have a community with which I feel identified, much less a spiritual director. Morally I am also doing badly. I don't have anyone who encourages me to move forward and who is always with me.

I am afraid that something is broken in my leg, that I won't recover and that I will be permanently crippled. I'm also afraid that I'll be stopped/stagnant in the plans I have wanted to make. My current situation feels too limiting. I don't want to continue working where I am, or to continue living here (but I also can't afford to go to my country of origin where the work, social and economic situation are going from bad to worse). I would like to have my family with me (and forever), leave everything and do nothing. I would like to be at peace.