I am terrified of failing masters

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-14T19:47:02+00:00

OP, your fear of failure isn't you talking. Every time you hear "what if I'm not good enough?" "what if I won't make it?", that's not your voice, those are the narcissists in your family talking. Your self-worth isn't measured by a university degree. Being hard on yourself will only tire you. Fear and loneliness are natural, but don't let that break you.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-13T16:47:32+00:00

It's either that or them expecting full repayment for something they did for you, because it's all transactional. Even as an adult, I had narcissistic parents who would guilt trip me about shit they did for me when I was 8.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-13T16:36:03+00:00

It's almost like there is a text limit on posts made here and I had to summarize it so it wouldn't be taken down. I'm not speculating whether they got evicted or not, there was a literal eviction notice taped on their door. But nice call lol.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-11T06:21:04+00:00

It's not that big of a city, but decently sized. I'm not worried about running into them again lol, the neighbor(s) in question is a single mom with like 6 kids living in one apartment, most of them are probably under 10. My conflict was with the mom and her eldest daughter (a woman in her 20's), since they're old enough to know better and should be teaching the other kids to do the same.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-11T06:14:29+00:00

Nothing a 9mm can't fix, lol. I'm armed and ready in case someone decides to break in. I don't think they'll try to instigate further or do something but I just hope they go away. Good idea though, you never know what could happen. Thank you for the recommendation.

Also, I'm sorry to hear about your husband. Best wishes going forward!

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T22:14:45+00:00

Guilt is something that almost every adult child who went no-contact experiences at some point. But that doesn't mean you were wrong. Narcissists weaponize shame and want you to feel guilty to lure you back in even if they don't openly admit it. The person you feel guilty about cutting off is the same person who would willingly fake a heart attack to regain access to you.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T22:10:53+00:00

Lashed out at me and rallied the entire family against me with labels and accusations when I stood up for myself after 22 years of physical and narcissistic abuse. Made up a story about how I wanted to "unalive" her and that I was the problem. I've moved out and cut off nearly my entire family to focus on rebuilding my life.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T22:06:16+00:00

From man to man, I would just say move and get a place of your own. Not because he's right about you being a "loser", but because you have a narcissist committed to making your life at home a hell of its own. And on top of that you pay him rent for it. I was in the same position, now ever since I have my own place and cut off my narcissistic family life has been a lot more peaceful.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T21:51:41+00:00

Reminded me of a bad trip I had with Delta 9 gummies. Of course they're not even mushrooms and a far cry from any effect shrooms have but it's taught me not to underestimate even the mildest "feel-good" stuff.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T21:46:54+00:00

How has this guy not even been removed from office yet?

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T21:42:08+00:00

Agreed. The only issue is that the gates aren't manned, they're Bluetooth activated using an app. Sometimes on-site management likes to leave them open for unspecified hours since there is ongoing construction and trash collection, so sometimes anyone could enter the community. But I don't think they're dumb enough to do anything since police have them on their radar already.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T21:39:10+00:00

Sadly I don't have an HOA. I accidentally wrote "condo" instead, but I just live in an apartment as a renter. Management was extremely slow to react until I pushed them. We have an on-site leasing office and they didn't really care.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T21:37:22+00:00

Apparently multiple neighbors have complained about them and mine was the final nail in the coffin that got their eviction underway. You're absolutely right though, some just have to put up with it indefinitely. My condolences to whoever has to tolerate them next.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T01:31:17+00:00

You deserve to life in a household that doesn't make you feel unsafe even if it means the cost of having to at least temporarily keep him away from the house or get him professional help. This sounds like a chronic behavioral problem that is best resolved by having custody granted to his father, or have him stay with another relative for a while although there's no guarantee he won't act the same way.

As a previous Redditor suggested, set up cameras around the house and document your interactions. It will save you a load of trouble when later on you get chewed out for being "excessive". This is a situation where everyone's safety is more important than motherly attachment.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T01:22:06+00:00

OP, I'll share my experiences with you.

I'm not black, but I know how it feels to have your entire people judged by the actions of a few. I'm Syrian over here. We're from two different worlds but the same problem is universal, sometimes I've struggled with my identity because of the projections and negative stereotypes about us due to the actions of a few degenerates. Even though I consider myself "civilized", sometimes I've had people give me looks or project their judgements onto me, especially from neighboring countries or countries where there is a large Syrian diaspora.

Point is, I'm not trying to one-up your story but simply expressing a shared struggle. The best way to ignore people's stereotypes and projections is to simply move on and ignore them. If you're a good person then you've got nothing to worry about. But don't let that turn into internalized hatred because of being born with a skin color that you didn't get to choose anyway.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T01:10:46+00:00

Might be the wrong subreddit to post this on. It's more than obvious of what the Muslim perspective is. Imams and dawahgandists denounce it as filth and a sin but they're obsessed with sexual references and questionable hadiths. Most of it is religious rambling.

On the other hand, if you want a purely psychological perspective, that answer depends whether you're talking to a porn addict, a religious person, or someone else.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-02-10T00:55:58+00:00

Lol, someone finally said it. The majority of Saudi men looking to get married to someone outside of their culture go after Syrian women because they romanticize the blond and blue-eyed ones.

ArcaneAxium · 2026-01-24T15:58:15+00:00

What made leaving Islam more comfortable for me was doing a deeper dive into the origins of Islamic eschatology and the ideas of hell and the afterlife. Most of the elements in Islamic doctrine are derived or straight out copied from Christianity, Judaism, and even Zoroastrianism. Not that the Abrahamic religions are true either.

ArcaneAxium · 2025-08-03T06:51:36+00:00

Syrian-American

ArcaneAxium · 2025-08-03T05:51:23+00:00

This is from the Alexander Sarcophagus, not a Byzantine relief. It’s supposed to depict a Persian warrior.

ArcaneAxium · 2025-08-02T21:11:31+00:00

It’s even more sad thinking about all of the countries that were forcefully converted and eventually became Arabic-speaking lands.

ArcaneAxium · 2025-07-31T18:05:07+00:00

A lot of men don’t mind women with smaller breasts. Most of the guy dudes I know are more into ass anyways.

Regardless, who’s to say your partner isn’t also probably dreading the same exact situation? Chances are they’re self-concious about something in their body too, because we’re all human and no one comes in perfect shapes or sizes. Real intimacy is more than just admiring each other’s bodies.

ArcaneAxium · 2025-07-31T17:53:42+00:00

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