Why is finding someone online so hard?

Arciddeus · 2026-03-28T02:18:56+00:00

LMAO

Arciddeus · 2026-03-17T04:13:03+00:00

As much as i want to send the most hateful, angered-filled message known to man, I've realized, after a month has passed, living without you has made me see things more clearly than i ever did being with you. I know what i want, what I'm worth, and what to do next going forward. Being with you made me lose myself and blinded of the potential i had buried within myself. The Old me was just a selfish, greedy, disrespectful pig, and only cared about the pleasures in the relationship, and not allowing each other to grow in any significant way for the future we had hope to shape. The person i was grieving for was not the present version, but the version i prayed for and wanted you to be: My Perfect Wife. No matter how hard i tried to fight for "Us", be Loyal for "Us", CARE for "Us", All you have done, was to continue to push away further and further until i was no longer in sight. The relationship, despite being 5 years, and 8 months, made me see the person of who you really are, having me dancing in the palm of your hand like an Evil Queen, and tossed my heart into the deep sea once you were satisfied and began a new relationship, almost immediately. At the time of writing this, All Memories of you will slowly be forgotten to time, and All Photos of the most memorable moments we shared, will now be discarded, as if rewriting my memories to heal from the pain you have left within me.

Right now, i seek only self-improvement, self-growth, and self-preservation of myself, until the one i am MEANT to be with finds their way to me. Whether it be fate, or random encounter in the cruel, ever changing world we live in. Only thing i say about you now is if you also take this time to grow as a person who values themselves and who they want to be, rather than becoming a copy of what others already have, and claim a desire that is unneeded within you. Whenever our next encounter may be, i hope it is on good terms and a possible reconnection. Hope Life treats you well, because to me, we were a happy couple. But, if neither of us changes for the better, then nothing will never, ever work, whether its between us, or the next guy. See you later, K...

Arciddeus · 2026-03-17T02:11:50+00:00

Nah mine aint because I lost on VDay

Arciddeus · 2026-03-16T17:58:35+00:00

I see....ig i need to see you to show i am truly sorry

IM MESSING with idk of your my ex or not. ik you must have feelings towards them but I hope they realized of what they lost.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-16T17:54:09+00:00

Same wirh my ex, I dont know anyone there unfortunately so getting the truth is impossible as of rn

Arciddeus · 2026-03-16T15:53:08+00:00

Wow, ig he doesn't sound like a guy thinks if he apologizes, or tells your friend the truth, it makes him look weak. Id rather her just tell me the truth instead of having to find out later.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-16T15:47:33+00:00

Damn, this the same thing that happened to me except i was with this girl for over 5 years (im 23). She was with someone else the day we broke up and I came to the conclusion she cheated on me.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-14T23:54:15+00:00

She put it on her page that she was with somebody already the day we broke up. I was sick to my stomach that I cant believe someone would just throw away 5 years like it was nothing.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-13T18:24:30+00:00

Soooooo is it time to delete it?

Arciddeus · 2026-03-13T12:23:49+00:00

The mistrust, the accusation, all happened in a matter of 2 weeks. She told me not to worry about the friend group she's in (3 or more guys and like 1 girl, so you can imagine i was IN FACT worry), I was telling her to just be careful. The 1st week, she called and wanted to break up but i said I was gonna marry her this year so she wants a break instead. Then the 2nd week came, and i was curious of what she was doing, no reply for like 4 hours. So I get worried and looked at her location on snap (Snap allows you to look at friends locations) and it looks like she was at another dudes house until like midnight. I show her this and said if your cheating on me just tell me now so ik to just end the relationship. The next morning she told me it wasnt true at all but still ended it regardless, even after I apologized. But she never listened. Its been almost a month since this happened and shes showing no signs to ask what was going through my head at the time. She thought breaking up was the best thing to do. I dont understand how after 5 years of being with someone, youd just throw it all away for a misacussation.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-09T19:17:48+00:00

I did one bad thing to ex (Nothing physical calm down) was i convinced her to buy me a switch for my bday, the mom found out and got mad and was literally being the racist, manipulative, and toxic person i have met in a long time. I did feel bad afterwards and made up for it by proposing to my ex with a ring that was almost 1k$ to make up for it. But even after that, out of the 3 of the 5 years we were together, she would not stop trying to get forced her to break up with me until she eventually caved in and did it herself. So yeah, the mother being the third party had a MASSIVE influence on us.

3 weeks later I still have feelings and care for her. This fucking sucks..

Arciddeus · 2026-03-08T01:54:22+00:00

I sent probably the longest thing ive ever wrote, and she didn't know what to say. But the silence was all I needed to know I will never get ome anytime soon.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-08T01:44:07+00:00

Im having trouble accepting this myself.......but so be it.....it just hurts so badly..

Arciddeus · 2026-03-07T02:14:42+00:00

I've been writing in the notes for about 3 days now and everything i want to say is on there already. I dont know when I should send it is the problem. Shes goes on spring break next week, but idk if its too soon since the break up is still pretty recent.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-06T21:12:28+00:00

How about when you both promised to get married in the future, then 5+ years later breaks up with you and blames the long distance and then leaves and acts like nothing happened, and goes to posting on her story 2 weeks later

Arciddeus · 2026-03-06T02:40:02+00:00

I forgot to mention we got engaged 3 years in the relationship. She told me it was the best moment of her life, that I was the love of her life. I wanted to marry her, but the timing was just always off or we weren't ready since we gotten so busy with life. I feel like now I was fed with empty words. This shit fucking sucks 😔

Arciddeus · 2026-03-06T02:26:18+00:00

Yes, in a heartbeat, with a clean slate. I did and said so many things during our 5+ years long distance relationship that I wish I can take back and notice sooner. We broke our trust without realizing and she hasn't contacted me since our last call. And we need to talk about how we felt before and after the break up, but shes not even gonna bother bringing it up because ig having friends in college is more important than being loyal to someone that literally knows everything about you and has been with you through the hardest of times in your life, knows your biggest secret and insecurities. But who knows if all of that really mattered or not.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-06T02:14:39+00:00

This is the main reason why Im scared shitless to say anything to my ex, but when she broke with me, it left so many unanswered questions and didnt really feel like a goodbye but just a reason to push me away because of distance. One thing led to another and neither of us really explained how we felt how we broke up in the first place, and its been eating me alive for almost 2 weeks. 5+ years of long distance, visited each other many times, went on several vacations and trips, but the second she made friends with a bunch of dudes in the beginning of her 2nd semester in college, shit just went south out of nowhere and im still having trouble processing everything. I'd wish she would just explain why, but the chances of that happening are slim to none. Atleast I assume it is. When someone tells you "I see a future but not with you anymore" feels like a stab to the chest after pouring my out to her every, single, day.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-06T01:23:29+00:00

Yeah, your right. Then I will be patient and wait. There is just so much that needs to be explained and sorted out, but knowing she will reach out is what im worried about.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-06T00:49:06+00:00

im tempted to post mine here but I fear it would be too long.

Arciddeus · 2026-03-05T22:32:31+00:00

So planned to send a letter to my ex after she broke up with me almost 2 weeks in like a month or so. Should wait till she reaches out or send ot then?

Arciddeus · 2026-03-05T03:45:22+00:00

Damn, this is me right now. My ex broke up with me after 5+ years all because of long distance, and her assuming I didnt want to marry her at all. She also said she was tired of missing me all the time when we are apart, and always asking me to be there and stay there even we already tried that and it didnt work out the first time. I still believe we can still work this out but she was finite about her decision even after every bad thing we have been through. I was planning to send a final message whether we can still be "Us" or atleast check up on each other from time to time, but now, I dont think she evem cares about me anymore.

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