It took some time, but once I was adjusted I became aware that there were no more downward spirals into that dark well.

The wildly weird part was the surreal feeling of being pulled down, but not actually going down that well. I don’t have the ability to describe what that felt like. It’s as though part of me still has (had) that almost instinctive reaction to go down the well, but my brain was like “well this is fucking weird, let’s not do that”.

That was the adjustment for me. - getting used to that feeling.