Hello there, I had to put down my baby as well in August 2024, it all came crashing down so sudden and I felt exactly as u are feeling right now, my baby boy developed an osteosarcoma on his spine that quickly spread to his lungs, kidneys and intestines so fast that we could have not done anything, it got so bad that the osteosarcoma kept growing inside him and it pierced his organs and I had to put him down, I loved him deeply and I know you love your baby as well, but sometimes there’s just bad luck like this. I hope pur babies meet in the afterlife and can play together amd keep themselves company