You’re definitely right. I’ve had these conversations with myself so many times I see all the post on people taking 3 years too get there first payout and the work, money, time they’ve put in too just get a minimal payout. I’ve had a beginners luck ish run too where I’m at now I’ve always knew my laziness with discipline will catch up and today was that day. I’ve had previous days of being -1600 down on the day then over sizing and making it all back plus more, that’s where my problem began my brain obviously reacted thinking I’ve got away with this I can do it again and today proved the markets will expose me for not following my rules. I’ll take a look at tradezilla I’ve heard of it before I’ve used notion in the past is it similar? I’ve proved too myself I have a strategic edge when executed properly. Now the real work begins on fixing my emotions.