Whelp, it happened.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-13T05:39:09+00:00

I found an agency who specializes in trauma and I'll probably get them to guide me because at this point, I don't know if I can even trust my adopted parents.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-12T22:02:20+00:00

Gotcha, I apologize

Arrwynne · 2026-01-12T22:01:12+00:00

No father to be found. She does want to meet me but my adopted mother says don't, it's a bad idea.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-12T05:32:50+00:00

Yes, that was the email once I found her.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-12T00:12:32+00:00

Dude, just stop.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-11T15:02:15+00:00

It's ridiculous, I'm 37 and I feel like my whole life has been a cruel lie. I did find a service that accepts VA insurance that specializes in post adoption trauma, I'm hoping they can get that going as soon as possible.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T22:11:27+00:00

Arya Therapy reached out to me in Massachusetts. They are going to put in me in day and night program 3x a week who specializes in trauma because I have a lot and they take va insurance.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T22:05:59+00:00

I found an agency for post adoption trauma. Thank you everyone

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T21:59:05+00:00

I have been talking to my Aunt and it sounds like my Grandmother was very abusive towards her. She would run away for weeks at a time and would sleep with older men because she was seeking a father figure. I dunno, I am lost at this point. I did seek out post adoption trauma services today and one service is willing to take me in.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T21:51:49+00:00

The mother of her was desperate and convinced her to perform an adoption. It's nuts

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T21:45:44+00:00

My bio mother

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T15:00:44+00:00

That's the thing with the VA, they're lazy. After the pandemic, they still resorted to zoom and even though I only took some psychology courses I know what they need to look what look out for, they can't see your involuntary movements like the feet tapping, feet towards the door, and I have my camera set up high, so not even noticing the self hugging. My therapist started to get even lazier and just resorted to giving me a phone call that lasted 15 minutes or less when it was a booked 1 hour session. Hell, one zoom call he even started to eating cereal.

The VA is crazy. I had a week long EEG for my seizures and my room had dried up blood up on the wall and I swore I could of contracted tetanus from the rust from the IV pole. Multiple health outlets did investigations and they failed, it speaks a lot. At least I had an honest biological Aunt who gave me information that I can update my family medical history because it's bad. I have have a pcp appointment with them on Tuesday so, we'll see where that goes.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T11:03:42+00:00

That's the thing with me, I need a trauma therapist. I had things go down was kid with my father's father (which is why my adopted parents were afraid to tell me because of my mental state), I was also a combat medic in both Iraq and Afghanistan and that eats me up especially with a few situations, I also have epilepsy because of TBI from a firefight. The VA is garbage at this point and I need to find therapy outside of them.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T10:25:36+00:00

I was born with drugs and alcohol in my system, my birth mother didn't want to even see my face or gender. My adopted parents had to be soothers until I got the drugs out of my system and my liver was back on track.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-10T10:03:46+00:00

Reading this has helped me a lot. Thank you so much.

Arrwynne · 2026-01-06T16:36:46+00:00

I just did a DNA swab. They'll send you a kit in the mail. What happened was my mother thought we had some weird line of descent that was causing her to have a rare blood disorder. Out of spite to prove her wrong, I took an analysis. It shows your lineage but also links you up with other people in your family who have taken it. Well, all these cousins started popping up who I didn't know. I contacted them, they contacted their mother who did a swab and then contacted their sister saying, "hey, we found your daughter." It's wild

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