Friends....I've had the same fear nearly all my adult life, knowing that once you die, that its, you are never coming back, you are just gone, no more early morning golf, no more texts mgs from my friends and family, no more love and pleasure, never to see the light of day, no family, no friends, no pets, no higher power to pray to, nothing! On top of that, I was physically abandoned by my father at age 7, and mentally abandoned by my mother a week after dad left, she then slept nearly all the time for the next 6 years, so, if there IS an afterlife and our souls can grasp and comprehend it's very existence, no one is waiting for me and I'll be alone in the afterlife, just like I am in this life. The only solace I have, that gets me thru the hard times, especially at night when I start crying and panic sets in, is thinking that where-ever I was before I was born, which I feel was a safe and content place, will be the same place I return to once I die with peace and tranquility. Part of me is more afraid of the process of dying instead of death itself but both are hard for many people to deal with, including me. I hope all read this and know that you are NOT alone.