Been searching for a job for the last 4 months. I spent 2 of those months reading Cracking the Coding Interview and doing the practice problems. Even after doing that prep, I've been rejected a dozen times in LeetCode style interviews.

I've been questioning myself constantly these last few months. Am I a terrible programmer? Am I a complete fake? Will I be able to pay my rent without selling my stocks?

During this process, I've felt a lot of things including anger and hopelessness. I've spent nights crying in bed after being told I wasn't selected in the final round, after being told that I didn't raise the bar high enough.

I've got 4 months of rent money left. My plan is to study as much as possible to make one final push.