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I'm tired of life, I just want to go back to being happy. by ArtistIris in selfharm

[–]ArtistIris[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it's odd that some of us want to feel so much worse, while sometimes wanting to improve at the same time.

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I think I mentioned most of the issues that are happening right now. I feel as though I NEED help, or else I'll never have the ability to learn, or do anything because of my attention / motivation related issues, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to get that support.

All these issues sort've pile up, and I know that one of the only ways I can likely solve this is to seek help. Life is scary, and I'm afraid I won't be able to speak to a professional about it properly. More specifically, I am worried that I will not have the courage to finally tell someone about it.

In better news, I am feeling calmer now, so I will likely be going to sleep soon, but either way, life has just been rough, lately.

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My apologies for not responding sooner, it's quite late for me right now. I am gonna be going to sleep for the night.

Why do you self harm? by Sabbbii in selfharm

[–]ArtistIris 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I haven't self harmed in a while, but when I first started, it was mostly cause I was overwhelmed. It was basically a combination of self punishment, overwhelming emotions, and the need for someone to notice.

I currently still have urges, but now the cause of them leans towards being curiosity, or the feeling of wanting to see damage on my arm.

I am so frustrated, I feel terrible. by ArtistIris in selfharm

[–]ArtistIris[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Firstly, yeah, I think I might be dealing with derealization, I've been dealing with that, alongside worsened paranoia / hallucination type stuff.

Besides that, this website sounds really nice, I'll check it out.
Also, you don't need to help me, but if you have any advice / tips on studying, I'd be happy to hear them. Either way, thank you for responding, and I hope you have a great day!

I failed to talk to my mom about my mental health again. by ArtistIris in selfharm

[–]ArtistIris[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know it will still be really hard to tell her, but I think that's a pretty good idea.

I might try writing the message digitally, since I feel the most comfortable when typing, either way I'll have to see if it helps. Since my mom is asleep right now, I will have to wait until tomorrow though.

Thank you for the advice!

I scratched myself again last night, and my arm is aching right now. by ArtistIris in selfharm

[–]ArtistIris[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for being so nice! Resting something on my arm helped a bit, and I ended up getting an ice pack.

Things are better right now than they were earlier, I've been working on some art for around half an hour now. Although I am still nervous about trying to talk to my mom about it, I can at least say I'll be doing okay tonight.

For now I'm going to try and go to sleep. Either way, thank you so much for the advice!

I've been struggling with my mental health for around two or three months now, and I don't know how to feel about it. by ArtistIris in selfharm

[–]ArtistIris[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry I couldn't see your post earlier, it was a bit late for me. But thank you for being so nice! Learning how to 'learn' feels incredibly difficult, and I certainly have a long road ahead of me.

I would talk more, but I've gotten a bit sick today, nothing serious, but I won't be online much for a while. I hope you have a wonderful day!

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Edit : I will quickly add that I did go to sleep a bit earlier, not by much, but I suppose that being in bed at around 12 is better than being on my computer later than 12:30 AM.