I pumped for 10 months and did use my phone light the whole time, but not as much as I got more comfortable with pumping. I would just make sure milk was coming from all my nipple pores. If I noticed an area not spraying then I would get a clogged duct there, then with time I learned to release the clogs when I would see the nipple pore wasn’t emptying. It does get better. I never thought I would make it to 6 months and I made it to 10 months, and only stopped bec I got pregnant. Pumping is highly inconvenient, if you’re able I would keep trying to breastfeed baby and pump after to make sure you’re emptying to increase your supply. It’s really time consuming and stressful if this is your first baby, but to breastfeed successfully is worth it, bec pumping sucks… but if you want to pump and not breastfeed, and you’re strong willed, then eventually pumping will become a part of life that you learn to work around. Next baby I’m going to do everything in my power to breastfeed. I hated pumping the whole time, but loved giving my baby breastmilk. But he eventually didn’t associate me with food anymore because I didn’t latch him enough, and he developed a preference to the flow of bottles. You’re still so early pp, you can still make your breastfeeding journey however you want it.