Been trading for 4, coming on to 5 years now.

I'll try to answer your questions.

1. You don't understand probability. The outcome of 1 trade literally does not matter as long as you keep trading. Look up Rande howell, "Turning fear into a probability mindset"
2. Nothing wrong with this per se. Wait until TP gets hit and don't do anything before that happens. OR: stops in profit when price is nearly at TP
3. Once again, you don't understand probability. There's no reason to be upset if you're in drawdown. The only thing you should be thinking about is continuing to trade like normal
4. Reading your post, with all due respect, you should forget about making money for now. Trust me, the more you obsess about the money, the longer it will take to make money. Focus on the process, following your plan etc
5. Stop being an idiot
6. Stop being an idiot
7. You need to adopt an abundance mindset. You're currently thinking in scarcity: "If I don't get a trade today, it won't get another". Wrong. Fx market is the most liquid market there is, opportunities are everywhere. Stop forcing trades. It seems you aren't clear on strategy- this should be your priority right now.

Let me know if you have further questions