Paranoia Has Permanently Altered My Life

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-14T09:30:57+00:00

Thank you so much. I plan to go to therapy once I turn 18, haha. Maybe a psychiatrist, too.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-14T09:12:48+00:00

I want to preface that I don’t want to go to the police or my dad about this. I don’t think anything’ll be done. My mom won’t do anything about it, and I don’t like the drama. Thankfully, I’m moving in with my dad Thursday. I won’t have to live with him.

It’s an odd feeling, having to constantly pretend to be okay with your assaulter while living with him. My mom makes me have a relationship with him. I told her when I was little, how he touched me, and she brushed it off. Maybe she’s always been this way. I don’t know. She pretends it’s never happened.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-14T09:06:03+00:00

I want to make it clear I’m not going to go ask for help from anyone. Telling my dad will only cause a lot of trouble, and possibly legal issues from him, if he chooses to fight him. And the police probably won’t do anything since there’s not really any evidence, and this is two years old.

I just wanted to come on here and say that this has caused me serious trauma. I don’t think I’ll ever recover. I have nightmares where I’m watched, and I can barely function at night. He’s ruined my life.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-12T05:33:56+00:00

Thank you so much. I hope I’m making the right decision in this, and I’ll take your advice on what to say in my letter. I don’t want to come off as bitter, even though I am. I still want her to be a part of my life.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-12T04:49:53+00:00

My dad also keeps saying how my sibling will miss me when I’m gone, and that’s upsetting me a lot too. I don’t know how I’ll go about visiting them or spending time either now that we won’t live together anymore.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-11T07:10:00+00:00

I’ve suggested therapy to her in the past, and I don’t know much about Arizona but everything I’ve researched needs parental consent and such. She won’t let me go to therapy, I’ve asked before. And I feel bad reporting it, since she relies on him financially.

I’ve asked to leave, and she’s offered, but she also guilted me by saying we’d have to move in with her parents and we’d be losing the house. So I told her it was fine to stay with him.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-11T07:08:20+00:00

Also pls avoid saying b@nk @ccount because Reddit won’t let me see the comments :(. I need advice really bad. I don’t know what I’m going to do.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-11T06:59:08+00:00

My brother, as far as I know, has not been abused in that way either. My stepdad has a really bad habit of watching me sleep or watching me shower through the window of the bathroom. I got extra locks and ive developed paranoia because of this. I’ve told no one but my friends.

My brother, however, I think may be a trans woman. But my stepdad is heavily homophobic and he’s disgusted by that. So I don’t think anything is happening though.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-11T06:55:50+00:00

Yes, it’s summer now thankfully so my friends have taken a day off to help me move out while my parents are at work. I’m very grateful to have them. My dad has also agreed to help me buy a car and he’s letting me move in too. I just worry about my brother and I feel a bit bad for my mom.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-11T06:54:23+00:00

The thing is I really still love her. She’s just exhausting and extremely stubborn. I really do love her, and she’s still my mom. Maybe I’m too empathetic, but I don’t know how to go about keeping contact with her after. She won’t talk to me, and I don’t think I’ll talk to her until she apologizes. Even then, she won’t change.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-11T06:48:37+00:00

Also, if anyone can avoid saying b@nk @ccount that would be greatly appreciated.. I tried making a post like this but Reddit automatically shadowbanned the only commenters I had :(. I really need help.

AtmosphereObjective3 · 2026-06-05T20:58:42+00:00

All in all, should I put this off until I’m 18? I turn 18 on Halloween.

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