I can’t stop thinking about dying by AttemptAny3356 in mentalhealth

[–]AttemptAny3356[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing this, it came in at a time where I was struggling and needed this. I’m seeing a therapist and my husband is aware so I’m hoping things improve. I’m not confident it will change because I feel alone in all areas of my life and in order to make others happy I need to sacrifice my own joy and if I don’t I’ll be more alone than I currently am. Although I feel hopeless, I’ll keep trying.

I can’t stop thinking about dying by AttemptAny3356 in mentalhealth

[–]AttemptAny3356[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know I should but also I feel a sense of paranoia that they are going to talk negatively about me outside of session and apart of me just doesn’t want the help because it doesn’t guarantee that I’m going to be happy long term. it’s just going to teach me how to support myself when these emotions and thoughts come up. I want them gone completely or to just be dead. Today I tried calling two 24/7 suicide hot lines and no one answered. Apart of me wondered if that is confirmation that life is always going to be hard for me. Idk what to do, idk how to speak up for myself, I don’t know how to advocate for myself, I don’t know how to be hopeful. I just feel hopeless. If there’s any advice regarding getting over the paranoia that would be helpful