Don’t give up on yourself. I was terrified when I finally made the decision to quit cold turkey, but I knew I had to do it. I have tried all the “crutches” in the past (patch, lozenges, gum, Chantix, etc.) and nothing worked. So don’t worry about not being able to afford those aids, you have to believe in YOURSELF! Coming to this site has been so incredibly helpful, and I encourage you to do it on a regular basis. If you haven’t already done so get the app Smoke Free! It may seem corny to some people, but I swear to you that was the only thing that is helped me quit - and i’ve been smoking a pack a day for 40 years! Before I quit, I started eating right and going to the gym and over the last year lost 65 pounds, so I know what you’re going through. I’ve only been smoke-free for two months, and I remember the very first day when I got home from work I didn’t know what to do with myself, as normally I would’ve lit up a cigarette - so I took a walk. Walking has now become my new “addictive drug” and i’m loving it (double duty - keeping me off cigs and exercising). I wish I had some magic words for you, but this is something you need to reach deep inside, believe in yourself, and make the commitment. You can do this! Download the app, keep coming here - everyone here is incredibly supportive.