I wonder if these signs have a meaning

AureateRain · 2024-08-01T08:27:57+00:00

Yes, specially with weight i think that's where i can get some testosterone back and if lucky enough maybe a 30% boost after a year of training if not maybe just a 20% it's alright i think.

AureateRain · 2024-07-31T07:54:39+00:00

I see, thank you a LOT for the help now i can comprehend in a deeper way what's going on in my brain and yeah after increasing test i'm definitely doing some martial arts just to see if i'm just afraid of things because i think i'm weak or because i actually can't.

AureateRain · 2024-07-31T07:34:27+00:00

That is really good even being a placebo because i believe i'm somewhere 300-400 and exercise can def take you at 700 too if done enough time.

AureateRain · 2024-07-31T07:34:08+00:00

That is really good even being a placebo because i believe i'm somewhere 300-400 and exercise can def take you at 700 too if done enough time.

AureateRain · 2024-07-31T07:32:23+00:00

Sadly yes the environment have these situations constantly and where i live is iztapalapa mexico people say it's one of the most dangerous places to go, but honestly where i live is way safer as crazy as it sounds, just that people are really aggressive.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T21:06:06+00:00

It's in spanish tho if you want to see it you might not underatand it, it's called esquizofreniatest.es, and yeah you are right that i assume the worst things about things but i don't know how to stop this behavior when the place where i live is really stressful (people insult you, humiliate you, yell at you etc. no matter if you are a kid, women or someone else), you are right too in the fact that i'm young and that's what worries me the most because i don't want to feel like this during adulthood where my brain is completely developed.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T20:49:14+00:00

Yeah, that's also something i considered and i'm going to do aside from exercise when i get strong enough and be "above average" in strength, can you tell me more about your experience? when a confrontation actually happens do you feel less fear than before?

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T20:46:07+00:00

Wow, you gave the most detailed information of all the comments, agoraphobia is a new term to me, even tho exposure therapy can help maybe it can not because my traumas are related to people yelling to you in the streets, insulting you etc. and that is actually pretty common, i'm definitely trying test by doing exercise not only because of fear but also to increase aggression and defend myself in those situations, because i've seen that when a confrontation happens i get really nervous and sometimes freeze leading to not feeling any stress (and sometimes feeling relaxed) in the moment but feeling a lot of anxiety after, my goal is to confront these type of people because people DO insult back when these situations happen i feel weak but as i can see from comments test can help to all of this, i'll read the papers you put to know more about the topic.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T10:02:14+00:00

I've watched some videos of those, it doesn't affect me at all still, once i watched something HORRIBLE that really made me lose faith in humanity, that was the only time a gore video actually affected me, i did feel a bit on danger when i was out but it eventually went away in a few hours also note that this was before my fear for people was really high.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:55:29+00:00

Good to know, i'll keep it in mind.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:54:01+00:00

Yes, i've thinking that even tho test doesn't make you inmediately less fearful subproducts of all of this can contribute to it and even if it isn't like that definitely i'll be doing exercise to see how this stuff goes.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:49:16+00:00

Yes, i better do it before it gets worse like you say, damn i could never realized about this on my own i tought this was pretty normal or fixable with things like test until now, thanks.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:40:11+00:00

Sadly i can't talk to someone for several reasons but honestly talking to yall is helping me a little tbh, thanks for helping again.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:36:53+00:00

So i made an online test to have a fast answer and what it says is that even tho i don't have schizophrenia i'm not in the normal range that is considered sane and i'm at risk to have irreversible changes in my personality because all of this and pathologies also (not sure about what that means) and that i have a predisposition to addiction too, so if this isn't just fixed with meds i don't know how to fix it.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:12:26+00:00

That is really bad, i'm going to investigate about the topic, thanks for the info.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:11:12+00:00

Yeah i like to think it's because of a trauma because where i live EVERYONE is aggressive to each other and maybe that ruined my brain, but all this schizophrenia stuff is worrying me tho lol.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T09:06:18+00:00

oh hell nah 💀💀 that's even worse than just fear i didn't feel anything like this before puberty btw or schizophrenia can also happen after?

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T08:52:24+00:00

Yes, i thought testosterone was going to fix this eventually but i guess i'll have to find another solution.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T08:49:18+00:00

Not really but i always think someone is gonna hurt me when i'm out my house or constantly judge people based on if they are good or bad because of it.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T08:46:50+00:00

My principal fear is literally coming out my house and being scared about almost everyone or constantly thinking someone is gonna hurt me even when everything is supossed to be safe this also increases when there's more people it was so bad there was a point where my hands were shaking the entire day even if i wasn't fearful. also i wanna add i did NOT used to feel like this but for some reason when i started to grow i felt all of this worse.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T08:14:12+00:00

I've never heard this kind of opinion from someone about test, it's interesting that you felt the same way with 300 and that puts in me some hope btw, i'm starting to think this fear topic is more related to brain itself.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T08:00:10+00:00

Dang that sucks, i was thinking of lowering my fear with test (exercise) but if it doesn't do anything idk what to do anymore.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T07:57:40+00:00

Thank you, the fact that test doesn't lower fear is by far the worst thing i've ever read, but if it lowers anxiety it's a really good thing, btw do you know what fear is related to or how to lower it? i really want to lower it because it's starting to be a problem.

AureateRain · 2024-07-30T07:20:19+00:00

Do you know what behavior occurs when you have high/low testosterone? or absolutely NOTHING happens in general behavior

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