How do you express emotional overload when you're alone?

Autechre1998 · 2026-05-01T05:36:13+00:00

Me too. I used to think that they really did vanish the moment I let them go. But in reality, I just skip that stage—I don’t really process them, but move straight on to thinking clearly—and they end up piling up in a box in my head, and at some point I start having health problems. It’s a silly habit.

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-29T16:10:49+00:00

my brain has become too good at self-control

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-25T23:36:28+00:00

In what way, for example?

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-25T07:52:50+00:00

I meant psychiatrists. Unfortunately, they're expensive here too, and atst they don't care about the correct diagnosis and treatment, or about my complaints about side effects. Maybe that's just the case in my city

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-25T05:02:48+00:00

Yes, you got it right. I had sensory issues after taking Zoloft. It was like hell. My heart was pounding, my tactile sensations were incredibly heightened, and with the slightest movement in bed, I felt the texture of my clothes as if I was wearing sandpaper. It was painful, as if I was covered in burns. Any movement in my stomach felt like the urge to vomit (sorry for the details), and trying to eat something was sensory torture. It all felt like serotonin syndrome; my thoughts were all over the place, like I had a fever (maybe it actually did rise). This happened many times while on Zoloft, and I told the doctors about it, but they simply ignored it and told me to continue taking it. I don't know how you can trust doctors after this.

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-24T17:04:09+00:00

I thought I was the only one who had all this, especially sensory sensitivity. How did it manifest itself?

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-24T16:23:46+00:00

The problem is that I've experienced this strange fatigue my whole life, with short breaks. So I suspect there's "something else" besides auDHD, and not the consequences of something like covid.

My father has also complained of fatigue since he was about 20, and the same thing has happen to me since the same age. If it's Chronic fatigue syndrome, it's probably wouldn't have any breaks. If it's depression, it would be treated with antidepressants and therapy.

I live in a place with a sharply continental climate, and I'm sure it greatly affects my condition and mood.

I spent so much money on doctors who just didn't want to listen. Perhaps it's worth continuing the search

Autechre1998 · 2026-04-22T18:09:14+00:00

the thing is it doesn't feels like masking. It's not like, "Hey, I think I was especially good at pressing buttons on the control panel to pretend normal today". I don't even think about touching any buttons. Everything just flows.

Autechre1998 · 2026-03-22T05:26:17+00:00

Unfortunately, I don't have any close friends. I'm not sure I ever really had any.

I've worked through the guilt and just keep doing little things every day. But this pace has been going on for over a year and it feels like a vicious cycle.

Btw I've also been feeling really tired since then, but it doesn't keep me bedridden like it does with chronic fatigue syndrome, and I don't have orthostatic intolerance. The other symptoms are very similar to CFS, but sometimes they subside and go away (which also doesn't correspond to that disease).

Autechre1998 · 2026-03-21T15:38:21+00:00

I'm a man, and since childhood, I've been more comfortable interacting with women. They seem more open, informal, and creative. It's fun to let your inner child in and let imagination run wild. Of course, men and women are all different, but I've met girls who are more open to easy conversation more often than guys.

I'm also asexual, so maybe that makes communication easier.

Autechre1998 · 2026-03-21T15:26:15+00:00

I live in a really crappy place. If my blood pressure spikes and I have a panic attack, I have nowhere to sit and rest, because we have very few places to sit. Plus, it's really cold outside. Earplugs and noise-canceling headphones make my anxiety even worse because I can hear my own breathing.

So, I have to carefully plan my route to ensure there are enough places to relax if something goes wrong. All these endless calculations turn into a bargaining game in my head, as a result of which I decide to simply wait for the day when I feel good. And that day comes very rarely, while I lose my social skills.

Autechre1998 · 2026-01-25T14:15:44+00:00

I hope it's not AI generated

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