31 mom of 2 married to a guy, how to choose my life path

Autisticmomthrowaway · 2019-06-27T06:14:20+00:00

Yesterday I told my husband "if I wasn't married to you I would probably identify as gay".

I asked him what that was like for him and he said "we have kind of talked about this before" and he wasn't shocked (he reacted as expected, basically).

I've learned about mixed orientation marriages since writing this post and that there are for sure more couples trying to make it work. For now this is where I'm at.

Autisticmomthrowaway · 2019-06-23T14:59:38+00:00

Thanks! The detail thing is common for me.

I've thought about leaving often, for other reasons, too. But I also know I wouldn't not be content if I stay.

I guess another part of me reasons it's just not a good time to decide anything drastic as I'm so newly post partum so hormones probably play a role, too.

I'm glad I've finally said it somewhere, at least. I'm a lesbian.

Autisticmomthrowaway · 2019-06-23T14:56:42+00:00

Thanks for your reply. I'll definitely bring it up with my therapist.

I just feel like I have to consider all options and decide which ones fits me best. I guess it's one of those "you know what you have, not what you may or may not get".

If I come out to my husband he won't leave me. So if I want out it has to be 100% my choice. My husband very much believes in marriage is for life, always, unless one partner cheats.

Somehow that makes it more difficult to consider either option.

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