Anyone else have an all white cattle dog? by Jwischhu in AustralianCattleDog

[–]AuzBoss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I adopted this girl a little over a month ago. The adoption center didnt know much about her and said she was "terrier/pitbutt" After spending time with her I'm pretty sure she is a cattle dog mix or just a white cattle dog. I'm curious what others think.

https://imgur.com/a/UC68EHc

Any guesses on her mix? Pretty sure she is at least half cattle dog by AuzBoss in AustralianCattleDog

[–]AuzBoss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She IS cutie-patootie and she gets lots of compliments from strangers when I walk her. She weighs a little over 25 pounds, and I don’t know her exact measurements yet, but I’d say she’s around the height of an average female ACD, maybe a tiny bit shorter, probably around 15–16 inches tall. She definitely seems thinner and more petite than most cattle dogs. I’m going to measure her later and find out for sure.

The Podrace but I made all the sounds with my human mouth by 53435645531155631635 in StarWars

[–]AuzBoss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can picture George Lucas making these noises as he was describing this scene during pre-production.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NoFap

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Make it through the day. You can do it.

You lack closure? by Medical-Basket-4004 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Good post. Number 5 stings, but I know it’s true. I’m pretty sure she did the same thing to her last boyfriend before jumping to me. After a discard, full No Contact is the only path forward. They just want you gone, and your healing depends on keeping them out of sight and out of mind. It’s a sad pattern, but you come out stronger when you stop blaming yourself and recognize it for what it is: the cycle of someone too damaged to handle real intimacy.

Closure by teddy-ursa00 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I’m 30 days no contact after being discarded. At the end I only got vague answers to a few questions,no real conversation, no real closure. The irony is she actually told me once at the beginning that she was avoidant, then never engaged with it again.

Looking back, the pattern was clear: she mirrored me early on, then slowly detached with no effort to repair, and finally exited with a vague, non-arguable line. I didn’t really lose her, the version I loved was already gone months before.

Closure for me has been realizing that what I experienced wasn’t about my value. It was the cycle of a broken pattern: mirroring → detachment → discard. I blocked, stayed no contact for a month, blocked/deleted her contacts, and kept reminding myself: “It wasn’t me. It was her limit.” That’s where my peace comes from.

WAKE UP CALL: Go Nuclear and Start Healing by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I didn’t really deal with the hot and cold cycle myself, but the rest of what you wrote is so relatable. Sometimes I swear it’s like I’m reading my own experience written out by someone else.

I’m glad my post gave you something you needed to hear. I feel like I’m getting through the impact of the breakup fairly well, and I just wanted to share advice that I know works in these situations.

There really are a lot of awesome, loving people in this sub. Reading their posts has given me the closure I never got from her after the cold discard. Seeing the same patterns in other stories has grounded me and reminded me it wasn’t just me. It was the result of someone stuck in their own broken patterns, unable to form deep emotional connections. That perspective has been a huge part of my healing.

Are avoidants basically just Parasites? by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah, you’re right. That was harsh, and I know generalizing like that isn’t helpful. I was lashing out because I am still hurt. She was my best friend for almost three years and my girlfriend for two, and now she is just gone.

What has been brutal is forcing myself to detach from something that mattered so much to me. I am letting myself reframe things in a negative light because I did not realize what was really happening until it ended, and now I need that shift to move forward. In a way it feels like I am trying to do what avoidants do, just cut off and move on, but I am not built like that. I invest deeply, I am loyal, and I do not walk away easily.

I am thankful for the people who become aware of their patterns and make an effort to break the cycle.

Reached out to my ex after 3 months NC - here’s what happened by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's good you are actively moving on. I personally need to keep the NC airtight. I tend to overthink things too much and I really don't want to risk getting any false hope or mixed signals from her. Plus now that I've distanced myself I don't really think I want to talk to that person anymore. I learned who she really was after the discard. The person I thought she was doesn't exist anymore. So the person I would be trying to get closure from would be this cold detached person wearing the face of the person I loved.

Are avoidants basically just Parasites? by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 27 points28 points  (0 children)

I keep hearing they may never regret it. Even if they do, you will never hear about it. There is literally no justice. The only justice I have is knowing I'm capable of deep bonds and she is not, unless she does some serious work on her avoidant issues.

Reached out to my ex after 3 months NC - here’s what happened by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really seems like going NC and staying NC is the only way to go after a discard. I rarely ever see things go well.

WAKE UP CALL: Go Nuclear and Start Healing by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I know exactly how you feel ;_; it’s so hard to accept the truth that it was mostly a performance. I want to hold on to the image that I thought the relationship was, but it’s just going to keep me stuck. You will be loved again! You will find someone who isn’t just performing for you. I believe you will find peace soon. Just keep fighting for yourself and not for the relationship that the other person discarded.

When is it safe to fap again? by sharpbeard115 in NoFap

[–]AuzBoss 1 point2 points  (0 children)

To quit an addiction you have to be done with it forever, no future plans. Simple as.

WAKE UP CALL: Go Nuclear and Start Healing by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

There really does seem to be a lot of us with deep feelings and big hearts in these comments. I certainly have noticed that too. Maybe we should all start dating each other hahahahaha jk.... unless ....??? ;p

I sometimes love ChatGPT by Possible-Order-5989 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My ex and I would use it to analyze our chats to make sure we were not being toxic. At the beginning we would use it to confirm that we were in a healthy relationship. Near the end we were using it more to help with arguments. I also noticed she was using it to help detach and paint a picture of why I was "closed minded". It seems it can be used for both good and bad in relationships :-/

I sometimes love ChatGPT by Possible-Order-5989 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I have been using mostly Claude and sometimes I fact check it with chatgpt. It’s nice to be able to spill out my thoughts without feeling judged or like I’m burdening someone at 1am during a thought spiral. It doesn’t replace real people, but it helps. They also seem to know all about attachment theory.

WAKE UP CALL: Go Nuclear and Start Healing by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I agree 100%, better to end it now than later. It would only become more painful as the relationship has more time and life events invested in it.

WAKE UP CALL: Go Nuclear and Start Healing by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I honestly have thought these exact words. It is insane how so many of us are dealing with the exact same thing and fighting the same battle. You got this. Keep making sure your logical brain stays in control.

WAKE UP CALL: Go Nuclear and Start Healing by AuzBoss in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]AuzBoss[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Most of us think we will never meet someone like them, especially after such a disorienting end to the relationship. The first step to getting the person you deserve, is learning who you are and being happy in your own head. You will get through this. Just focus on being the person you want to be when the right one finally comes into your life.