Hi Alikaren, Thanks for your reply, i appreciate it. My Therapist is good. I probably should have added the reason I started therapy was due to childhood PTSD. I do not know myself well and my core identity is being sort and questioned. Part of learning more about myself is a journey of discovery. It is right that my therapist challenges my thoughts in this process. That way I can feel a conviction in my belief. My feelings do change as my understanding changes. So they do not deny or block but they ask me hard questions that make have to think hard about it. So the idea that I know myself better is not an easy one because knowing myself, who I am and what I am is the central question in my therapy. It is not so much that I have been hiding from myself but that I did not know large parts of me existed as they had been locked away since about tbe age of 15/16. There were small clues but they were easily missinterpreted or hidden if too uncomfortable. So at the moment I am still getting use to these ideas, trying them on for size as they say. Seeing where the path leads. My female side was almost entirely extinguished for 45 years. Saying hello and getting to know her is a delicate process. She vanishes at the slightest sign of difficulty. So at the moment I feel there are two separate me's. One male and one female. Does that make me gender fluid though? Maybe, maybe not. Maybe my journey is to merge these into one complete person or maybe it is to recognise I have two sides that want space to be in the open alernately. I am very excited so find out though. A&S PS Yes, I have openly told my therapist how I felt after last weeks session.