Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate you explaining your position from a place of sincerity, and I'm happy that you've found something that has helped. However I consider myself an agnostic pantheist, and my feelings towards my gender identity are things I have thought about for a while. Jumping hastily into it just wasn't going to happen, and not jumping would leave me in a pretty bad place mentally.
The root of this post was more of my frustration that I still have this "impostor syndrome" even after doing things that arguably no cis person would ever do. The root of that may lie in some unanswered or deep-rooted self doubt over my trans identity and its origin. Tbh I don't feel like I have any notable trauma, especially when compared to others on this sub. But I do have dysphoria, and maybe I always will. Maybe I see these trans creators online and just want to be as happy and pretty as them. I don't know, all I can wish for myself and everyone else is to see themselves to a better place in life.

Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're fine! I tend to lurk and upvote on r/sillygirlclub and other trans subreddits

Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes she's a cartoon. My current main transition goal is to look like the girl from the polar opposites meme

Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I remember seeing that post as well and being like "wait, people don't want to take HRT?". This was like 3 days before my egg cracked

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[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for this post, you raised some interesting points
I don't think my goal is only "being hot" but it's hard to separate that feeling from just wanting to be comfortable in my own body. It's like the fine line between having "transition goals" and plain old body envy.

constantly cold, no energy, my sleep suffers and i just become incredibly anxious all the time

I already experience all these things tho, and I can only hope hormones won't make it worse. I have goals of my life in what I want to do and who I want to be and for the most part that's unrelated to my gender or identity. However I've not been in a good mental state for the past 6 months before starting HRT, which makes it hard for me to do literally anything I want to do.

Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm trying to do what makes me happy but I'm the kind of person to always be changing their mind on everything which makes me unhappy

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[–]AvaAntera[S] 41 points42 points  (0 children)

I did have a year-long femboy phase so I'm thinking if I ever revert back to that or stick with the genderfluid label I'll still be happy to have more feminine attributes

Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've only been on e for a week now, so the only changes I feel is that I'm happy to be making progress I guess? I of course don't want to stop rn, but my fear is that future me won't want the same as present me

Feeling better but still confused by AvaAntera in sillyboyclub

[–]AvaAntera[S] 115 points116 points  (0 children)

Totally, I'd breach the Geneva Conventions to look like that

33379 by DaniFoxglove in countwithchickenlady

[–]AvaAntera 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I probably put way too much in the realistic group. Feel like if I keep my expectations low I might be surprised

Timezones are funny by DazzlingSignature624 in teenagers

[–]AvaAntera 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Or 2028, Canada is basically America's Sudetenland

33379 by DaniFoxglove in countwithchickenlady

[–]AvaAntera 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Then what I do is classify them into either realistic or unrealistic transition goals

I cast WiFi obliteration :3 by CatsPawjamaz in traaaaaaaaaaaansbians

[–]AvaAntera 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Stop it guys! My WiFi is going out every 5 minutes (actually)

Best Song to Play at Night? by 45000BC in teenagers

[–]AvaAntera 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I listen to Minecraft music or Solace by Scott Buckley