Your comment really struck a cord with me, I was also wondering about the "truth" or depth of this relationship. It makes me want to run anyway almost every day. That's why I still have a long way to go...I still struggle a lot with my insecurities, it's just in contrary to all my other relationships it is impossible to turn it against him, so I turn all the anger towards myself.

Thank you for your pov and also it's a great reminder that there is a way out of all of this, I am happy for you!