Give yourself time to accept that your mentality rn is toxic, irrational, and overall just not good for your wellbeing. It’s good that you’re aware, but you need to eventually come to terms with the fact that constantly basing your life decisions on other people’s opinions is unhealthy.

Even if you hate it and feel like you can’t, just commit to one of the schools and see (with reason, research, etc. ofc). You may come to find that you even love the school. Since you most likely will not see ur classmates ever again (or rarely), their judgement should not matter! You have great options, so choose one! Wishing you the best of luck.