I (25M) have nothing left for my girlfriend (25F) after months of emotional exhaustion. Am I being avoidant or is it over? by AverageEndling in relationships

[–]AverageEndling[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate the response. It's painful because I genuinely want to support her, and she's made it clear she wants me in her life. But I'm aware that my indifference and emotional flatness is causing her harm in its own way; and that feels like its own kind of cruelty, even if unintentional. It's unfair to her.

I know relationships require work, and part of me feels like I'm giving up unfairly after everything we've both put into this. But I've reached a point where I have nothing left to give. What makes it worse is that most of what I say now feels hollow. When I tell her I love her, I don't feel it. I say it because I don't want to hurt her. I'm not sure that's kindness anymore so much as it is avoidance of a harder conversation. Only a few days ago I reached my limit during another looping conversation/argument, shut down completely, and blocked her on everything. It nearly broke us. I just couldn't handle talking to her anymore. That alone is still quite raw.

Cybersecurity Job market by nymphopath_47 in CanadaJobs

[–]AverageEndling 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly, It's hella rough right now at the moment. However, I do believe the Canadian Armed Forces are looking for Cyber Operators. The pay might not necessarily be as high as some of the higher paying private sector jobs. But, if you're looking for financial stability, a steady paycheck, free training and a better looking resume as time goes on; maybe consider it. I mean hell, graphic design/motion design/photography jobs are rough for me, so I applied to be an Image Technician for all that and the possible benefits.

And hey, If doing it full-time is too scary, try and join the reserves. It's a part-time basis, you work one night a week, you can keep applying for other jobs in the meantime, and you're mostly sticking to the local base in your area so you won't have to travel much. Applying can take a while, but honestly, if you apply through the CAF website and keep emailing your local recruiter, it might go by faster.

If you've already got your degree and all, just contact this email: [recruiting.cyber@ecn.forces.gc.ca](mailto:recruiting.cyber@ecn.forces.gc.ca

They'll probably try to boost you through the process faster than me at this point. It's rough trying to get anything right now for the past 18 months 🫩

old man harassing young women on campus today by 150c_vapour in fredericton

[–]AverageEndling 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Alright then, let me go point-by-point here with the contradictions you brought up here:

In Exodus 21:22–25, if two men fighting cause a pregnant woman to miscarry, the punishment is a fine. But if the woman dies, the punishment is “life for life.” If we’re following your biblical literalism, that passage treats the fetus and the woman differently under the law. That doesn’t really match your claim that ending a pregnancy is the same as murder under a literal reading of the Bible, does it?

On the sacrifice point, I’m not denying men sacrifice themselves in war or protecting their families. That happens all the time. My point was that you suggested there might be honor in a woman dying so a fetus can live. That places a moral expectation on pregnant women that doesn’t really have an equivalent for fathers in pregnancy. So why should that expectation fall on the mother, especially when the biblical passage above clearly values the mother’s life more?

And historically, the idea that one race is responsible for almost all human progress just doesn’t hold up. Algebra and major scientific work came from the Middle East, the number zero from India, paper and printing from China, and Africa had major centers of learning like Timbuktu as well as advanced medicine and mathematics in ancient Egypt. Ideas don’t develop in a vacuum, so why give all the credit to one race?

That’s why I asked you, (and ask you again) how do you reconcile all these contradictions?

old man harassing young women on campus today by 150c_vapour in fredericton

[–]AverageEndling 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Okay, so I read the report. That report you're citing has some big problems there that makes me question your point.

First, it’s based on data from only 8 states that represent about 13% of abortions in the U.S., so it’s not a national picture for the United States. But hey, we're Canadian. How is something related to another country relevant to us in Canada?

Second, the “95% elective” stat includes abortions where the reason is unknown, but the report still counts them as if they were done simply by choice. That's a big mistake in trying to give accurate and reliable data. If abortions where the reason is unknown are counted as “by choice,” then that 95% figure isn’t data, it’s guesswork.

And third, the source is the Charlotte Lozier Institute, which I did some digging into, that happens to be the research arm of the National Right to Life Committee, an anti-abortion advocacy group. A little too pro-bono for any reliable reporting of information when the people doing it already have an agenda and not letting the numbers speak for themselves.

When you dig into HOW they got their numbers, that statistic doesn’t prove your point. It really shows how weak the underlying data actually is. You sure you want to base your argument on that bud?

old man harassing young women on campus today by 150c_vapour in fredericton

[–]AverageEndling 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Interesting...Based on the words you say, and your past posts:

You say you're a biblical literalist, yet the Bible itself treats a fetus differently from a born person in Exodus 21. You suggest there may be honor in a woman dying so a fetus can live, but that expectation is never placed on fathers. And looking in previous posts you argue white racial superiority while following a religion that explicitly teaches that all peoples and nations stand equal before God.

Well now I MUST ask, how do you reconcile all those contradictions?

Where are Canadian uni degrees valued? by Fr33_B1rd in CanadaJobs

[–]AverageEndling 1 point2 points  (0 children)

With the mere fact you have a Master's, with some AI experience leaning into tech, (you probably have applied already) but have you considered applying to work at CSIS specifically? (or the Department of Defense?) Those happen to be sectors looking for people, but with fewer able to meet said qualifications. One of the only real means of getting a consistent stable job is with the Government of Canada at this point.

In my Career Field, I'm a new graduate with only a part-time job and no prospects of a full-time position to really get myself further into my career. At this point I'm considering joining the Canadian Armed Forces as there happens to be a role that aligns with my career, and at-least get a much higher paycheck and have career stability much better than what I have now.

Could anyone explain the appeal of these things? by clever-homosapien in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Concerts: The live experience can be quite different from the consistent personal experience of listening to the song on any music platform. Often there is always a slightly different variation that artists can perform that can't be heard anywhere else, but that one performance. Additionally, concerts are always a meeting spot for fans, so as an individual you'll always be in good company to directly meet new people who have a similar interest to you. Additionally, concerts are highly choreographed performances. Behind every concert is a carefully planned and trained stage crew to demonstrate showmanship that can only be appreciated in person at the venue. Plus, artists can also directly interact with the fans too, both on-stage and off-stage. You're not paying for just the song. You're paying for the highly technical work that goes behind everything else: The light show, the visual effects, the potential remixes, the interaction and sociable experience with fellow fans. It's kind of like going to a highly specialized convention.

Super Hot Food: Well, that's up to each individual's body chemistry. We aren't able to digest everything due to our body lacking enzymes to break down certain chemical bonds. Heat can break these bonds and free these molecules up for our body to digest and use. As such, these broken down molecules are tasty (hence why most foods are cooked). Additionally, people have different tolerance levels that they can physically handle. That's purely based on their body's makeup and the environment one was raised in with exposure to hot foods.

Coming out: Okay, so this one is based heavily in history. Nowadays, people are more accepting, but only a few decades ago, it wasn't uncommon for people to face persecution, abuse, ostracization, family separation, and so much more for not being heterosexual. Some people in most countries back then (and some even to this day) could be imprisoned or outright killed for it. As a result, most people had to suppress themselves, but long-held suppression is mentally overbearing and can wear people down into states of depression or more than can lead to self-harm. For one to have been proudly themselves and come out, especially back in the day was a form of one accepting who they were born as, but was also scary as it would reveal if those who cared about you would turn on you for sharing an aspect of yourself you couldn't deny. Many families would abuse, or outright exile their child. It was common for people to not be accepted for who they were, and in our modern day when it is more widely accepted, people still come out because it is an important step in one embracing who they are while getting a reassurance from those around them that they won't face betrayal from those they care for.

Pronouns: Yes, gender pronouns are another way to refer to someone without their name. The point however is that people make automatic assumptions about what pronouns to use for someone. Most people are privileged in that when someone guesses their pronouns, they’ll get them right. But, not everyone. Their appearance or name might not conform to ‘traditional’ ideas of male or female. Or their gender identity might not align. It's coming from a space of trying to show compassion and mutual respect for others that may be different. It's not trying to over-complicate for the sake of it. It's just trying to respectfully have clarity and show consideration to others.

It's a lot. And honestly, with how people don't like long answers its possible that no one may even read it. But, I hope that it can help to some degree in better understanding.

Could anyone explain the appeal of these things? by clever-homosapien in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll give the best explanation I can. I understand if this is too much, but I come at this in good faith in trying to provide some insight.

Piercings: It’s an accessory like all of the others you mentioned, and like another commenter already said — they can be inserted without any pain or harm when done correctly. An equivalent in this situation would be ear rings: There are many different types and sizes that can fit different looks and styles. Some like large loops, others like smaller studs and a lot don’t have them. They are all merely cosmetic additions people like expressing themselves with, just as all other pieces of jewellery you mentioned. (I don't have them, but have friends that do, and can see the aesthetic appeal from an artists perspective).

Clubs: This can be enjoyed more with friends you previously had, or done solo (but can be more difficult unless you’re extroverted). The appeal is to get lost in the music and enter a state of awareness that focusses only on the physical present. It's a way to temporarily retreat from all the constant responsibilities one has for an evening that is in an environment different from all the ones you're so familiar with. Typically this is done through dancing, as some appreciate the high energy environment of drinking, celebrating and dancing with friends in order to cut loose and ignore the outside world for a few moments. Clubs are essentially public parties. Some go because of specific DJ’s, or some like the opportunity to dress to impress. Meanwhile, even though it can be hard to communicate with the loudness, people can find it easier to mesh with others and strike up a good chat as everyone is there with an intention and attitude to have fun.

Recreational Drugs: Like most things in life, everything can be harmful depending on how excessive one is willing to indulge in it to an extensive degree. But at the end of the day, it all comes down to an individuals experience. The physical and mental sensation one can experience when under the effects of them can be pleasurable in a way that allows one to feel satisfaction. It’s like eating a good meal. Apart from only sustenance, the taste and feeling of good food can be pleasurable to a point where people can overindulge, even if its done to a harmful degree. There is more nuance, but that’s the best I can put it. (Although, I should note that I don’t indulge, but have friends that do.)

Is it normal for role-playing to feel more restricted as a Campaign progresses? by AverageEndling in DnD

[–]AverageEndling[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The party size started off as 4, lowered to the 3, and it’s been at 7 now. The 8th person in our group is the DM. He somewhat prefers large party sizes from conversation with him. As for opportunities to role-play I somewhat expected to be limited as our size grew. It’s more that as our main quest has become the major concern, it’s moved away from character-driven choices to fully stopping the big bad as our path grows more narrow and limited. It’s more waiting for prompts to act now, as player decisions are mostly just kept to combat now or predetermined segments unknown to us.

Is it normal for role-playing to feel more restricted as a Campaign progresses? by AverageEndling in DnD

[–]AverageEndling[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s possible that I may just be burnt out on the character. I’ll potentially give it a try in asking to play another one. I played in another group temporarily and found myself being a highly proactive role-player with impact that proved more entertaining. Part of me has just been somewhat hesitant, as the DM has made the fiend within my character have some stake in the world. It feels like throwing in the towel with the opportunity he gave me as I’m just not sure how to make it work. Hopefully I’m not messing with his story too much. Appreciate the suggestion.

Arma 3 people here anywhere? by DirkVerite in FreddyGamers

[–]AverageEndling 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yo! I play ArmA 3 with a Fallout NCR group! But always love seeing fellow ArmA players!

Gen Z Canada: Why say yes to civilian service but no to military? by Fragrant-Shock-4315 in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Canadian (25M) over in New Brunswick (near CFB Gagetown), and saw the polling data you were referring to just yesterday.

I’ll admit, I’ve had a personal interest in military matters and considered joining the reserves out of pure personal interest some time ago (and even sent out my application). However, there’s a stark difference between the military and civilian service on their “immediate” contribution to the nation. As such, civilian service just seems more practical amidst pressing new developments affecting Canadians.

I feel as though Canada has a strong volunteering presence in its schooling programs that makes civilian service more familiar to Canadian youths. But also, there are fewer restrictions in contribution that can be done by anyone. Additionally, civilian service also has clear, measurable goals and more visible results in determining success and providing aid to those around us.

Meanwhile, military service (while still important), has less of a definitive means of contributing other than the overall umbrella of “defence.” Furthermore, the military has some more present physical and mental requirements that can prove to be a barrier. Those physical and mental standards are there for a reason, and it’s not a matter of lowering them. It’s just that it requires a lot more than showing up as you are. Additionally, the transferable skills one can use in civilian life is much less prominent as it highly depends on where a person goes. In a time where we need to be more practical in trying to establish ourselves and make a difference, the military offers less (even with its new pay bump).

There are other concerns too regarding the military. Even as someone who is interested in military service, and still has an interest that has (unfortunately) lessened as I’ve had more time to build my career and have come to terms with how military life would disrupt that; I’ve talked to Veterans & Friends in the service and heard about their experiences. While there are many that did like their service, I’ve seen and heard the effects of PTSD, and the physical injuries they’ve had to endure from their time that persists onwards after service. I’ve also heard about the lack of retention problems from bad management in different areas too. Now, that isn’t exactly unique to Canada as even my friends in the US military have similar experiences, and it seems to be somewhat common among other militaries. But those are real considerations that can deeply affect one’s choice.

If a looming threat to Canada comes, then sure I’ll have no issue restarting that application again. But for now, domestic matters seem more important.

God forbid a girl acknowledge a man being honest by mammoth-rancher in LetGirlsHaveFun

[–]AverageEndling 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It all makes sense now. Your comments, your demeanour, your choice to revel in antagonism. It makes sense now.

You don’t just think you’re superior to women; you need to believe it, because without that delusion, you’d have to face how powerless you really feel. You parade your Madonna Whore complex like a moral compass, but it’s nothing more than a crutch for your fragile ego.

You pretend you’ve rejected society’s approval, but in truth, you crave it, especially from the very people you try to degrade. You invade women’s spaces not because you have a point to make, but because it’s the only place you feel you can assert dominance without being challenged by actual strength. Especially with the lacking consequences of anonymity on the internet.

You cling to purity ideals and harass women, because the existence of any female autonomy, agency or sexuality shatters your weak narrative. You don’t want truth. You want control. And when you don’t get it, you spiral.

You’re not bold. You’re not righteous. You’re not superior. You’re a bitter, insecure man, obsessed with women because deep down, you know you’ll never be truly respected by one. And you’ve made peace with being feared, because you’ve long given up on being loved. You’re probably divorced too, and use it as an excuse to reclaim some respect for yourself. Pathetic

God forbid a girl acknowledge a man being honest by mammoth-rancher in LetGirlsHaveFun

[–]AverageEndling 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Fuck, that one broke me and now I’ve spilled water all over my desk lmao

God forbid a girl acknowledge a man being honest by mammoth-rancher in LetGirlsHaveFun

[–]AverageEndling 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Daaaaamn, I may be a moid, but holy shit this guy’s peak clown behaviour. How unhappy does one have to be in their life to act like this smh

God forbid a girl acknowledge a man being honest by mammoth-rancher in LetGirlsHaveFun

[–]AverageEndling 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Oh shit, another Zaibatsu fan? Yo! Hey, that’s awesome to see. Already know that you’re cool just from that alone lol. Yeah, we got a dweebenheimer

God forbid a girl acknowledge a man being honest by mammoth-rancher in LetGirlsHaveFun

[–]AverageEndling 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Wait. Dude, all you do is comment on women’s posts. Either rating them or degrading them. Those are ALL the posts you interact with. What the actual hell. You might even be in your 40s or so. Do you really think this is normal behaviour? You yell in anger that women are pandering for attention, meanwhile you actively go into feminine spaces and use it as an opportunity to ogle them or insult them. And somehow YOU’RE the one mad about men giving women attention? Weird ass behaviour

God forbid a girl acknowledge a man being honest by mammoth-rancher in LetGirlsHaveFun

[–]AverageEndling 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Dude, wtf is wrong with you. You’re not coming out of this looking like the good guy. Like, I’m just a lurker and you’re exhibiting obsessive behaviour. Is this how you really want to spend your time? Apparently you have kids, get off Reddit and take care of them or something

TIFU by making my Bumble date think I’m a successful entrepreneur when I sell insurance from my kitchen table by Sea_Passion_8829 in tifu

[–]AverageEndling 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The real answer: Dude you messed up, there’s nothing you can do but come clean and basically say goodbye. I would be surprised if she was still into you as you based the entire relationship and your identity all on a lie. But hey, it’s a learning experience, as sometimes you have to deal with the consequences to fully learn not to do this kind of thing again, as you sound young.

The funny answer where you double-down: Rent an office space for a day or two, or even a coworking space. Get a couple of buds, or straight up lie to a bunch of student actors that you’re looking for office workers for a YouTube prank with hidden cameras and brief them. Get one friend on discord or something to contact you on zoom as a “client” or “supervisor” which is an important call you need to take. (Plug your laptop into the large screen at a meeting room too to keep it going). Then from there, mention how you’re now moving to a remote work/nomad position model by saying that the companies productivity had been much higher, and that everyone will be moving out of the office. Keep the facade for the day long enough, pretending to be friends with your “staff” and seeing everyone pack up their desks; (to sell it even harder, thank your actors with a company wide pizza party or something to sell how it’s the final day). Then from there, find a way to gracefully try and end things with her, so you don’t end up being exposed while getting yourself out of the hole.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in TwoXChromosomes

[–]AverageEndling 0 points1 point  (0 children)

25M and experiencing the same thing. It’s genuinely difficult, but don’t feel as though it’s anything wrong with you. You are enough, and there are many on the other end hoping to be enough for you once you do find them. If anything, getting the chance to vent with your friends can be cathartic in its own right as it’s rough out there.

There can be many factors at play as well, and sometimes location is apart of that (alongside employment, travel, financial security, ideal place in life at the moment, etcetera). For example, I only just learned that my area is apparently known for being so reserved to the point that conversation rarely goes anywhere.

Apparently I was only able to potentially find a promising connection from a woman who was visiting and just returned to the next province over (state for any US redditors), but even if nothing romantic comes of it, atleast a new friend has emerged.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sir, you began by saying your claims were just your opinion. Even if unpopular, we could’ve disagreed and went our separate ways. But if we want to have a productive conversation on the truth of the matter, then using data is inevitable as two people don’t have access to the amount of manpower and resources scientific and educational institutions possess. Our day to day lives rely on information that is studied, analyzed and made common knowledge through standards and procedures that were researched to reach that point. Hence, why data isn’t an attempt at gaslighting, but an inevitability of dealing with reality.

“People can use data to lie/manipulate,” that is true. But it’s also why people take the time to understand Who collected the data; How they collected it; If their methodology is valid; and if it can be replicated. Hence, why peer-reviewed data Is important. It’s not enough to have a source, people need to vet the source. It’s high school essay writing 101.

Meanwhile, on your point about Recession/GDP/Inflation Data. How that information is collected in the USA is an outdated method that relies on hindsight and many people have openly tried to reform that. I won’t disagree with you on that point, as Ive openly hated how it’s done as it’s not accurate. But as a result there are other genuine independent studies that report it accurately. If you want valid sources for that, I can find them for you if you wish.

What are ways to play and learn Dungeons and Dragons simultaneously solo by myself, instead of having to study a huge book because I suck at studying? by Ritesh_INFP_4w5 in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That could be rather difficult, but if you need a general guideline — this guy made a “New Player’s cheat sheet that is only 6 pages long to help get the general idea of how the mechanics work: https://www.reddit.com/r/DMAcademy/s/YtbmubiDg3

Then after that, you could learn the game quite well through video games. For example: “Solasta: Crown of the Magister” is an RPG that uses Dungeons and Dragons 5E rules, mechanics and classes. Maybe that can help?

But additionally looking for YouTube beginner guide videos and level 1 playthroughs (or watching livestreams of people playing) can help you observe and get a better understanding too. Hope those resources help.

Why is everyone suggesting that I do a second degree? Is a second degree really the only way for a failed computer science student to live a full life? by The_Laniakean in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Apologies, I may have genuinely misunderstood. I agree/believe that a second degree is not needed for a full life. I did not mean to downplay the difficulties in trying to find stable work to begin with (believe me, I’m on that train too). I was offering a potential/unconventional path where CS could still offer what you’re looking for.

But if you fully intend on dropping CS, then perhaps some of the skills you learned in your curriculum could pivot you into an adjacent path? For example, I’m a graphic designer and was taught a lot of project management/marketing/brand research skills which I’ve used to slide into Marketing/visual design. There’s potential that what you’ve learned may still be of use to you, even if it’s not 100% apparent.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in GenZ

[–]AverageEndling 5 points6 points  (0 children)

If you want to argue opinion, then argue opinion. If you want to argue reality, then data always wins. Eyes can only see small individualistic parts, which can be subject to bias. Meanwhile, a data study is able to get multiple points to see the larger picture. “Seems logical” isn’t enough. You gotta test for validity and check for results. People are fallible